What are the reasons you don't want to kill yourself right now?

[xLosthopex]

My dogs, my lack of motivation to get my affairs in order due to depression, also I have anorexia and would like to get back to my lowest weight before ctb, a big part of my sense of identity and purpose in this world revolves around my ED and looking deathly skinny...(I know this probably sounds ridiculous to those without eating disorders)

 

[LonelyDude15]

Wanna catch up on some stuff and I'm waiting to see if anything happens in the meantime that might change my mind

 

[gnomeboy17]

Knowing I could kill myself at any moment (since I bought SN in February) has made life worth living. I can try to do something and worse case scenario, I fuck it up, no problem, I can just die. But that's what makes life so good, that I have this choice. Without it I wanted to die so much, but having SN has greatly decreased my stress in day to day life.

 

[Zenpurrz]

I honestly feel like my cats are the only reason I am still alive right now as they are really the only thing that bring me any vestige of happiness anymore. I have to make arrangements for them where I know they will be loved and well taken care of after I am gone. Selfishly I would like to spend my last hours with them by my side, but I don't like the idea of them having to spend time with my corpse afterwards, so I have some thinking and planning to do in that respect. I also have to settle on my exact method of expiration, then obtain it, and write down a few things; final thoughts and wishes...

 

[Chronicillness]

I think just fear at the moment, because I am nearly out of hope, so primal fear keeps the engines churning, even if I beg for mercy — fear keeps me alive. I think there has to be a genetic component to my inability to kill myself even
after all the suffering I have gone through and am currently enduring. It's logical to kill oneself in my position, and illogical to continue being tortured like this.

 

[antigone_iris]

My family and me being a hopeful idiot are keeping me from ctb. I keep hoping for things to get better. Aaaaand I'm a chicken.

 

[suicidesheep31]

I first need to finish some task at work. Unfortunately, it can take some times before I finish it but I have to do it because I don't want to cause troubles to my colleagues

 

[draw a circle]

My friends that i met thru this forum.... I've been talking with a few of them and they're nice and everything I could ask for in a friend. I still think I should do it but I'd feel bad leaving them and i don't wanna leave them anyway.

 

[Merlay]

I'm not mad enough. I'm not crazy enough. Still not empty enough. At least, I have something to look forward to in this shitty life.

 

[Studio84]

The hurt and devastation it would cause my extremely supportive and loving family is pretty much the only thing stopping me... And maybe deep down I'm a tiny bit afraid that sn is nowhere near as peaceful and painless as its portrayed to be.

 

[Marchioness]

Only the idea of it failing.