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amor.dor

amor.dor

Não existência
Dec 24, 2025
339
What are the last things you plan to do before you die? Those things you feel would make you feel better and at peace—whether they're very complex or simpler things, like reading a book, traveling, or anything else.
 
Norf I Guess

Norf I Guess

The tired eye, peaking through tight shutters.
Feb 3, 2026
6
Probably nothing, when I get the means to I'll probably do it the first moment I can.
 
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dragonofenvy

dragonofenvy

Warlock
Oct 8, 2023
726
Try to find some way to relax. I don't want to spend my last moments anxious or scared. I want to feel like I'm falling asleep, or at the very least feel at peace before I go.
 
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jengablocks

jengablocks

im jengablocks
Jan 30, 2026
15
maybe its sort of silly but i want to try hard drugs ! i dont know much about them but i've stayed away from anything aside from, like, my prescribed dose adhd meds. i figure i already struggle so much with getting the happy chemicals that i dont wanna mess with that process in my brain while im alive.

but i think it would be nice to experience unearthly euphoria.. like every signal running through my brain surging and sparking into pure happiness, a fireworks show to celebrate a final, peaceful end.

although, thinking about it is kind of sad in the way of it being sort of impersonal, like my last moments aren't really spent with a sober & grounded "me." in contrast, i might also just sit alone in the quietest space i can find, hehe.
 
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Off_Switch

Off_Switch

Experienced
Aug 15, 2025
230
Anything that doesn't involve making CTB easier and more likely to happen is pointless. Any pleasure gained from doing somethings g I like will be short-lived and may even decrease the odds that I do it.
 
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madwoman

madwoman

what a shame she went mad
May 7, 2025
354
Go thro old photos and listen to 21 pilots album
I've been listening to the song Goner a lot, it's a good one from them
Awe low key stuff, watch certain movies again, eat certain foods I want to, watch another sunset, put my toes in the sand (at a local small beach), stuff like that. Nothing big, I have no big desires anymore like traveling and such. I feel I've done enough but just want to be at peace before I go
 
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copioushopelessness

Experienced
Aug 27, 2025
289
maybe its sort of silly but i want to try hard drugs ! i dont know much about them but i've stayed away from anything aside from, like, my prescribed dose adhd meds. i figure i already struggle so much with getting the happy chemicals that i dont wanna mess with that process in my brain while im alive.

but i think it would be nice to experience unearthly euphoria.. like every signal running through my brain surging and sparking into pure happiness, a fireworks show to celebrate a final, peaceful end.

although, thinking about it is kind of sad in the way of it being sort of impersonal, like my last moments aren't really spent with a sober & grounded "me." in contrast, i might also just sit alone in the quietest space i can find, hehe.
Drugs aren't that euphoric
 
madwoman

madwoman

what a shame she went mad
May 7, 2025
354
Best band for grief. His ability to put so much emotion in his voice is unmatched! City walls is good too :))
They are really good - just listened to that one for some reason haven't heard it before! Goner was just in a book I read dealing with suicide (Together We Will Go) so I had it on repeat but I like their music!
 
interna

interna

Fredericia
Dec 1, 2025
57
Anything that doesn't involve making CTB easier and more likely to happen is pointless. Any pleasure gained from doing somethings g I like will be short-lived and may even decrease the odds that I do it.
agree
 

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