what are some of your daily struggles?

[luten]

Mine:

1. Chronic Pain
2. Loneliness / Isolation
3. Eating Disorder (it is getting better)
4. Procrastination, day dreaming, wasting my life on nothing
5. Sleep (it is not really a problem, it is just that i have to take heaps and heaps of benzodiazepines)

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[GenesAndEnvironment]

1. No anchor point for full suspension.
2. No life.

 

[deflationary]

I guess I'm faring relatively well compared to some other forum members here.

I guess mine are
1) grief
2) anhedonia
3) boredom
4) anxiety
5) feelings of alienation/loneliness
6) anger

 

[spiderlily]

1. Procrastination feeds into all my other issues the most, oddly enough
2. Depression, for me, leads to self hatred, having nothing I'm passionate about or want to do
3. Social anxiety making me act like a dumbfuck

 

[LittleBabyNothing]

1. Existing

 

[Marktheghost]

1 Loneliness
2 Not being able to clean my flat because I've lost the will to live
3 Frustration because nobody will give me the help and support I need, or even help me find any professional help.
4 Social anxiety/shyness etc making shopping difficult so I can't get what I need.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

1) waking up at a reasonable hour
2) getting out of bed
3) usually my severely autistic sister that I have to care for has something going on. Sometimes she's feeling sick or gets a canker sore so she refuses to eat or drink anything. Sometimes she's on her period so she's in a lot of pain. Sometimes she decides she wants to play with and throw her poop around. Sometimes she scratches up her hands due to her eczema so I have to apply ointment to them and make sure she doesn't destroy her hands. Sometimes she gets into a mode where she copies everything I do, you'd think this would make things easier or that I could exploit it but she goes about this in a painful way, for example she will hesitate for a few minutes to process something, then try to stand in a spot I was standing in a few minutes ago. If I use a light switch, she has to touch the same switch several times. If I grab onto something, once I let it go she repeatedly picks it up and puts it down as if she's trying to get a grip on reality. Sometimes she won't eat until she gets an impossibly clean spoon or fork. I often have to take her on walks like a dog so she can get her energy out. Before Covid I usually had to drive her to and from her adult school. These days if I can get her up early enough I've got to log her into these Zoom classes which she can't even really participate in because she's nonverbal.
4) between all that I have to struggle realizing that I'm becoming increasingly unfit for the modern world and I'm going to have to die completely lonely.
5) what show should I watch next? (Assuming I haven't already found a show to be binging)

 

[justanotherstar]

1. The big sad
2. Grief
3. Bulimia... is a prison :-(
4. Anhedonia
5. Voices/hallucinations
6. Chronic pain and illness
7. Chronic insomnia/sleep problems
8. PTSD
9. Self hatred

 

[Araya]

Disassociation, anxiety, depression, BPD, insomnia, no energy, money problems

 

[Sensei]

Often, but not always: morning terrors and emotional instability. Sometimes: depression and suicidality. It's not always the same, though. During depressive episodes I can be nonstop emotionaly unstable, depressed, and suicidal, for instance.

 

[sorella santini]

1. Pretending everything is "ok" for my spouse and children when all I want to do everyday is crawl into a hole and never come out again.

 

[luten]

that is a difficult one....

1. Pretending everything is "ok" for my spouse and children when all I want to do everyday is crawl into a hole and never come out again.

 

[LunarPyotr]

1. Not constantly thinking about methods 2 kill myself
2. Loneliness
3. Not to say something stupid to my parents that would make them find out about my problems
4. going out of my bed...

 

[noname223]

Loneliness, scared about poverty (money problems), thinking too much about suicide, desperate attempts to prevent my suicide, depression, mania, paranoia

 

[AntiCycleAN]

1. Anhedonia
2. Anxiety about my future (or hopefully lack thereof)
3. Depression caused by personal failures
4. A complete lack of motivation to accomplish anything important
5. Social Anxiety and fear of interactions
6. Not having the strength to end it all and escape this suffering

 

[UseItOrLoseIt]

1. Being so emitionally intense that my mind feels like it's melting. Poor concentration due to emotional instability.
2. Being obsessive about ctb - the only thing I can concentrate on.
3. Thinking everybody looks down on me. Forfeiting friendships because of this. Giving no one a chance. Loneliness.
4. Insecurity.
5. Insomnia.

 

[Mentalmick]

Being scared of my own shadow, it all balloons out from there.

 

[DisillusionedDragon]

Finding motivation for doing things I don't want to do (basically everything) in this absolutely meaningless existence filled with vast amounts of suffering and an inevitable demise. Being aware of all the horrible things going on in the world. Despair.
But also some normal things like anxiety or having no interpersonal relationships.

 

[Meretlein]

1. Boredom
2. Loneliness
3. OCD and other mental health issues
4. Some foot and neck pain
5. Tooth and jaw problems
6. Sleep problems, I am always tired at work

 

[hopeisgone]

Crippling loneliness, existential depression, complete and constant boredom with life, finding no meaning or joy in anything except researching ctb, hopelessness, my mind constantly telling me what a useless piece of human garbage I am, emotional instability.

It is both comforting and depressing knowing that others feel so similarly to me on a daily basis. I don't understand what any of us did to deserve having to live like this. I'm sorry we have to :(

 

[kovkay]

Mainly procrastination and feelings of inadequacy.

 

[WornOutLife]

1) My bipolar disorder
2) My inconstancy, which is related to my bipolar disorder I guess lol.

 

[gus.nixon]

4. Anhedonia

I had to look this word up because it's a new one for me, but by golly it describes me so well. I'm going to talk to my Dr about this. I hate having to walk on eggshells when talking to Drs about this stuff. Tip-toeing around the fact that I suffer from extreme suicide ideation without telling them I suffer from extreme suicide ideation is exhausting in itself.

 

[TessB]

Being angry, or drunk, or angry, or drunk, or absolutely fucking raging

 

[gus.nixon]

Being angry, or drunk, or angry, or drunk, or absolutely fucking raging

I used to love getting blackout drunk for days at a time because it would literally shut my conscious mind off. I do not recommend this to anyone. Withdrawal symptoms from alcohol is horrid.

 

[TriggerHappy]

well... here goes nuthin' :: my darklyshining friends:-
fuckity fuck i'm struggling...
Have been withdrawing from life lately (also cutting H usage) has made me feel completely sad and isolated.
(oh my fuck I hate this vulnerability)
I read through this forum and i'm weirdly detached - slightly afraid in that anti-psychotic detached from caring way:
I look at the bell notifications and think to myself 'they don't know me / no-one really understands... )
i know it's how my shadow manifests - by alienating and isolating - and soon after an attempt..
really gotta get things finished; so mentally tired of all of this: that's why i'm typing
this disclosure of sorts :: there's a reason it's not in Recovery Forum
- not even sure it even serves a purpose :: waste of words, yeah.
if you cannot see me do i exist? XM!GS

 

[whywere]

Hellish chronic pain
no family or friends ( except my GREAT global family here!!!)
Little to no sleep Walter