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Soontocatch

Member
Feb 20, 2025
40
Like consider it to be the day you ctb.What are the final things you would do.Something necessary like clearing up your phone,room and so on.
 
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ForeverCaHa

Heartbroken Welshman
Feb 16, 2025
402
I plan on getting all the 'admin' done before my day comes. My plans for the day itself (aside from going into town to buy kitchen scales and a measuring jug for the SN protocol) are to have a coffee at the shop I used to go to with my partner, and then take a walk in the park. Just a simple day, inevitably will be deeply melancholic with the memories, but that would be the case regardless.
 
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Jadeith

Specialist
Jan 14, 2025
301
Die. That's the last thing i'd do. Everything else, like "admin" activities mentioned by ForeverCaHa would be done way before day "0".
 
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opheliaoveragain

Eating Disordered Junkie
Jun 2, 2024
1,891
Die. That's the last thing i'd do. Everything else, like "admin" activities mentioned by ForeverCaHa would be done way before day "0".
seconded. my ideal is to have everything tied up before d day. I recognize that i'll probably never get it all perfect, but what is?
 
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Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
1,811
If I was planning to ctb today I think I'd make a pizza one last time.
 
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pauly369

pauly369

Dying Inside.
Mar 16, 2025
162
I would definately go buy some vodka.
I havent had a drink in ages because I had a serious drink problem in the past.
I miss that feeling of being pleasantly drunk.
 
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Apokryphiel

Forevermore
Mar 23, 2025
76
I think I'd go to a remote location without any light pollution and watch the stars. Preferably remote enough to just end it there and never be found.
 
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pauly369

Dying Inside.
Mar 16, 2025
162
I think I'd go to a remote location without any light pollution and watch the stars. Preferably remote enough to just end it there and never be found.
Sounds nice.
Spending your last moments away from everyone in a peaceful setting.
 
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MathConspiracy

MathConspiracy

Stuckdent
Mar 25, 2025
113
I've done this many times when attempting (my last attempt went south because the rope wouldn't tighten). I would:
  • Clear my browsing history
  • Make sure no one can EVER connect my real identity to MathConspiracy – if possible, I will to clean up my posts a bit
  • Probably listen to some nice music
There's not really much. Since February I've gradually lost my interest in the things I used to like. I just don't care anymore and that's why I do dumb things (I will probably regret signing up on this site). Music brings me very little pleasure – I still listen to some classical pieces, enjoying them more than any of my favorite rock albums.

I'm like an empty shell that just exists. As said, I've entered a phase with no more depression, no more negative feelings. I feel literally nothing and it's freaking me out.
 
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Roadrunner

Roadrunner

Experienced
Mar 18, 2024
290
Arrange for my son to take my dog. I'll have to say it's just for a couple days. I'm sure he'll keep her once my CTB is discovered. I don't care about anything else, or loose ends etc.
 
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SomewhatLoved

SomewhatLoved

Bringing out the Dead and Searching for the Living
Apr 12, 2023
262
I used to want to plan out a nice day - go to my favourite restaurant, send heartwarming messages, etc. But honestly I think if I ever actually go through with it, it will most likely just be like any other day. I'll come home from work and hang myself, nothing special.
 
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xan1495

Member
Dec 11, 2024
5
Schedule text messages to be sent to my loved ones later
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,636
I'd just hope to never suffer in this cruel, futile existence ever again, I'd just hope for peace as the peace of non-existence really is all I hope for and could ever do, I'd never wish for the torturous burden of existence rather I just wish for non-existence, I'd always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony I can feel. To me existence really does just feel like a mistake and no matter what I could only see non-existence as positive for me, I just want to never suffer ever again and I'd be so relieved to finally be free from this existence that just caused all this harm and suffering in the first place, all I want is for all to finally be gone and forgotten for me.
 
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NonEssential

Hanging in there
Jan 15, 2025
286
Delete the "homework" folder from my phone. After making the noose knot, I'd have to get drunk to try to numb the SI somewhat.
 
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daysfeel

Member
Oct 6, 2023
36
I don't know if I'd really do much of anything. Maybe I would delete some things from my phone and have a cigarette, but that's really it. I don't have the energy in my soul at this point to reminisce. I would write a quick note and get on with it.
 
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Lo$t95

Hello Darkness my old Friend
Jul 16, 2024
248
I would like to have a clear sky on the night and be able to compose myself if I get panicked at any point I can pause and take a break to look at stars while I slow my breathing. I will have my playlist ready which I am really happy with and it feels ready to go. If everything is set up already then I will be just sat on a branch in the middle of the forest/night sipping Southern Comfort and smoking a cigarette until it's time to drop.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
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Like consider it to be the day you ctb.What are the final things you would do.Something necessary like clearing up your phone,room and so on.
Nothing much to do, just put on the table my CTB note, my Will, the book Final Exit, Nitrogen warning sign on the door to the store room, and the framed picture of us together that I want buried with me
 
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ventingfrustrations

Student
Mar 4, 2025
172
I don't drink but I'd buy a case and see what it feels like
On the day before
 
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