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This is purely my opinion, so feel free to disagree with me. I am 23 yo myself fyi.
Disagree, some people are victims of child abuse or sexual violence and trauma like that makes you suicidal and feel like shit for the rest of your life even if you get therapy and meds. I'm not even close to being okay with with much less more minor traumas even though I've gone to therapy for 1/3 of my life now.
Well my son was 23 when he ctb by hanging. His twin brother was one of the people who found him.
That's a good point. Society tries to make us believe that anyone can recover from childhood trauma. Some can but not all. My brothers and I had a horrible violent upbringing. We're all screwed up and in our 50s. I've tried therapy, meds, support groups and too many other things to mention. None of it helped. Of course society likes to blame the victim by saying we haven't tried hard enough. Unfortunately for some it's life sentence for a crime they didn't commit. For a young person it might get better or it might not. I count among my biggest mistakes not ctb when I was 25. I came within inches. Had I gone through with it I would've saved myself a lot of pain and misery.
20 for males <= CTB age <= (20 + Number of years I can tolerate chronic, untreatable, insufferable mental or physical ailment)
I didn't say anything else:
Probably right now (23), or 25 at most. I think early adulthood is ideal as you don't have to enter the real world or deal with the mundaneness and boringness of adulthood and capitalist wageslavery. The thought of adulthood terrifies me, I'd hate to have to work for a living and do that for 40-60 years. I truly think that life as an adult is not worth living for me. I don't think that I would find it meaningful or fulfilling. I'd rather die now, and die young. I've always planned to go out before 25 maximum.
I'm sorry for your loss, I hope your son is in peace now. I have skin problems too and it's one of the main reasons I want to ctb. I'm entering into a field of psychology too like your other son so that's an another coincidence. I hope you can heal from your pain one day.
Same situation I have all your aliments as well and I don't see the long term plan of trying to sustain in a mind and body that doesn't meet society's criteria's to be successful. I want to go at minimum age of 32 since I'm a stubborn bastard and I want to help the situation of others so my life has some meaning.
