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venin

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Including: junkfood, coffee, working, normal cigarettes, porn, sex, faping, bdsm stuff, watching gore videos, cutting yourself, shopping etc.

For how long have you been doing it/them?
 
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AllFoxedOut

AllFoxedOut

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alcohol, cigarettes, SH, video games, food and coffee. I don't have all of these addictions at once. I usually bounce between them at varying intensities. I just quit alcohol but my cravings for cigarettes and SH have been high since.

I probably first got addicted to video games as a child. SH at 13 or 14. cigarettes at 16. alcohol at 22 or 23. coffee at the same time.
 
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BluesRunTheGame

BluesRunTheGame

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ALCOHOL. It will kill me, if I don't do it first.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
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Tbh I'm not addicted to any of this stuff. I did a lot of different drugs excessively in the past (decades ago) but they didn't make me addicted either. I drink beer almost daily lately but I'm pretty sure if I had a fulfilling purpose I wouldn't even drink beer, at least not daily.

Edit: I'm addicted to SaSu and chatting LOL ^^
 
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Zebulon

Zebulon

The loneliness is killing me
Jul 30, 2023
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The only addiction I have right now is fapping. Otherwise I use some substances from time to time. With the ranking for killing loneliness:

  1. original U94 xanax bars
  2. S-Ketamine
  3. Mushrooms
But ive taken bascially everything (execpt H, meth and some RC) to try and numb the loneliness. But I really need to up the dose quickly with Xans and S-Keta to get the same feeling of numbness, so I just do it If I really feel lonely.
What I wanna try next is Testo. Studys show that you feel way better on it and my levels dropping with my age aswell.
 
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greenpictureframe

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Video games and a form of self harm, but nothing really bad. I also have a pepsi max "addiction" (not sure if it counts haha, but I can't stop and it's kinda hurting me financially...)

I used to be addicted to sleeping medication (used to take really large doses to keep me asleep for 18+ hours) and also more serious forms of SH, but it's better now
 
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wristcutangel

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What value is there to a life that wants to end?
Jul 5, 2023
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self harm, as you might be able to tell by the username, and the internet.
 
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hamvil

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Aug 29, 2022
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Was addicted to porn and work, but now work is gone and the anti-depressant took away also the addiction to porn.
 
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trashprincess

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Aug 8, 2023
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At this point, mainly just drugs. I relapse on sh from time to time, but I've been trying to stop.

In the past I've been addicted to cigarettes, video games, and pornography.
 
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captive

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Video games and a form of self harm, but nothing really bad. I also have a pepsi max "addiction" (not sure if it counts haha, but I can't stop and it's kinda hurting me financially...)

I used to be addicted to sleeping medication (used to take really large doses to keep me asleep for 18+ hours) and also more serious forms of SH, but it's better now
addicted to pepsi? you are probably addicted to caffeine then which is present in that said drink
 
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cigarettes, porn, music, films, weed ,coke, internet, laptop
 
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Bad english, didn't go to school sorry
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Porn
 
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addiction in common parlance is a nebulous term. medically speaking, doing something everyday does not mean you are addicted. there are other considerations to make. do you prioritise x behaviour over private or professional obligations? what happens if you try to stop? do you continue to engage in x behaviour despite concerns from friends, family or medical professionals?

so it's more nuanced than simply doing the thing everyday.
 
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BluesRunTheGame

BluesRunTheGame

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addiction in common parlance is a nebulous term. medically speaking, doing something everyday does not mean you are addicted. there are other considerations to make. do you prioritise x behaviour over private or professional obligations? what happens if you try to stop? do you continue to engage in x behaviour despite concerns from friends, family or medical professionals?

so it's more nuanced than simply doing the thing everyday.
You sound like someone on whom therapy might actually work. No offence.
 
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Minsu

Suicidal korean girl 🇰🇷🏳️‍🌈
Jan 17, 2023
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Video games, junk food, chatting, tramadol, pregabalin
 
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UKscotty

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May 20, 2021
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None really except maybe the gym.
 
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venin

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alcohol, cigarettes, SH, video games, food and coffee. I don't have all of these addictions at once. I usually bounce between them at varying intensities. I just quit alcohol but my cravings for cigarettes and SH have been high since.

I probably first got addicted to video games as a child. SH at 13 or 14. cigarettes at 16. alcohol at 22 or 23. coffee at the same time.
I also do that. Bounce between them 🫨
ALCOHOL. It will kill me, if I don't do it first.
Well at least you've got a back-up 😭
Tbh I'm not addicted to any of this stuff. I did a lot of different drugs excessively in the past (decades ago) but they didn't make me addicted either. I drink beer almost daily lately but I'm pretty sure if I had a fulfilling purpose I wouldn't even drink beer, at least not daily.

Edit: I'm addicted to SaSu and chatting LOL ^^
I was also gonna say about SaSu 😁
The only addiction I have right now is fapping. Otherwise I use some substances from time to time. With the ranking for killing loneliness:

  1. original U94 xanax bars
  2. S-Ketamine
  3. Mushrooms
But ive taken bascially everything (execpt H, meth and some RC) to try and numb the loneliness. But I really need to up the dose quickly with Xans and S-Keta to get the same feeling of numbness, so I just do it If I really feel lonely.
What I wanna try next is Testo. Studys show that you feel way better on it and my levels dropping with my age aswell.
Ty for sharing 🤘🏼
Video games and a form of self harm, but nothing really bad. I also have a pepsi max "addiction" (not sure if it counts haha, but I can't stop and it's kinda hurting me financially...)

I used to be addicted to sleeping medication (used to take really large doses to keep me asleep for 18+ hours) and also more serious forms of SH, but it's better now
Idk what they put in Pepsi Max and Diet Coke but they're highly addictive even though they don't have sugar. And I mean besides the caffeine ofc.

What kind of sh? If you don't mind?
cigarettes, porn, music, films, weed ,coke, internet, laptop
Fare enough 👁️
addiction in common parlance is a nebulous term. medically speaking, doing something everyday does not mean you are addicted. there are other considerations to make. do you prioritise x behaviour over private or professional obligations? what happens if you try to stop? do you continue to engage in x behaviour despite concerns from friends, family or medical professionals?

so it's more nuanced than simply doing the thing everyday.
There are for some traits that have to be met:

- compulsive need to do it
- repeating the behaviour despite the negative consequences
- experiencing withdrawal if trying to quit
- behaviour extends over a certain amount of time

Idk if I wrote them all but it's something like that 🌞
You sound like someone on whom therapy might actually work. No offence.
Why? Not mocking or anything. I'm just curious of the thought process 😊
Video games, junk food, chatting, tramadol, pregabalin
How's tramadol? I know it, but I haven't tried it
None really except maybe the gym.
That's fucking gr8 man. & what you do when you feel down af, besides hitting the gym?
self harm, as you might be able to tell by the username, and the internet.
How often do you sh?
Was addicted to porn and work, but now work is gone and the anti-depressant took away also the addiction to porn.
Glad to hear the last part 🤗
At this point, mainly just drugs. I relapse on sh from time to time, but I've been trying to stop.

In the past I've been addicted to cigarettes, video games, and pornography.
Congrats for stopping the last ones 🤗
 
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Mxverick

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I was really addicted to porn, now I'm addicted to the gore stuff especially animals where they are dismembered and tortured to death. Finding this type of content is very difficult also because it is often expensive.
 
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I was really addicted to porn, now I'm addicted to the gore stuff especially animals where they are dismembered and tortured to death. Finding this type of content is very difficult also because it is often expensive.
Oh fuck… I didn't even know there were videos like that out there.

Do they numb yourself, or do you feel pleasure? I'm curious

Also, do you have to pay for it?
 
squareminus1

squareminus1

Member
Aug 12, 2023
68
Coffee, junk food, porn including spending money on porn (so like OF and some subreddits), chess (only half joking on that). The first 3 are large contributors as to why I feel so disgusting all the time and why I am here. If hating yourself counts as well it's fair to say that's up there...
 
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Mxverick

Mxverick

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Aug 12, 2023
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Oh fuck… I didn't even know there were videos like that out there.

Do they numb yourself, or do you feel pleasure? I'm curious

Also, do you have to pay for it?
It's like child pornography, the content is quite hard to find because it's not on the clearweb. There are sites that ask you to buy the membership which costs around 30€ and sites that give you a presentation and each content costs from 2€ to unlimited.

When I see it I feel like a god, vibrations that start from my spine and reach my fingertips.
 
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Minsu

Minsu

Suicidal korean girl 🇰🇷🏳️‍🌈
Jan 17, 2023
485
I was really addicted to porn, now I'm addicted to the gore stuff especially animals where they are dismembered and tortured to death. Finding this type of content is very difficult also because it is often expensive.
I don't judge you don't worry, but I'm curious.. what's the addictive part of watching animals tortured to death?
 
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venin

venin

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It's like child pornography, the content is quite hard to find because it's not on the clearweb. There are sites that ask you to buy the membership which costs around 30€ and sites that give you a presentation and each content costs from 2€ to unlimited.

When I see it I feel like a god, vibrations that start from my spine and reach my fingertips.
Ty for the info 🤗
Porn, coffee, and nicotine.
That was the holy trinity for me all throughout my life 🥰
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
35,572
I don't really, I'm not into self harm as I don't desire to suffer and I'm just not that interested in existence in general, existing doesn't appeal to me and my existence will always be very empty, I only wish for permanent, dreamless sleep, existence was just something I was burdened with.
 
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Mxverick

Member
Aug 12, 2023
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I don't judge you don't worry, but I'm curious.. what's the addictive part of watching animals tortured to death?
I have already partially answered your question. It is as if I cut myself off completely from the world and my suffering is transferred.
 
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Unattainable666

Unattainable666

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2023
1,346
The addiction to continue to be stupid enough to care about people who don't give a shit about me. But I'm learning - just slowly. Oh and wine, coffee, tea.
 
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