Were you suicidal before having your first relationship? Did having a relationship help at all?

[PI3.14]

im in my first relationship now. i was suicidal before entering it, and i still am now :/

I'm sorry if I sound ignorant, probably because I actually am. However, does your partner give you emotional support? What about hugs? Do you not get these things or you get them but they don't provide "magic" healing?

 

[etherealspring]

I'm sorry if I sound ignorant, probably because I actually am. However, does your partner give you emotional support? What about hugs? Do you not get these things or you get them but they don't provide "magic" healing?

yea he does support me, is affectionate etc and he's rlly sweet and i love him a lot but it doesnt make the desire to ctb go away

 

[PI3.14]

yea he does support me, is affectionate etc and he's rlly sweet and i love him a lot but it doesnt make the desire to ctb go away

I see. What's your story? If you don't mind sharing ofc. I always thought having a person who you love and loves you back will help a lot even if it won't probably be a magic fix to one's life.

 

[destinationlosangel]

I was never suicidal before my health started acting up but my ex girlfriend was suicidal before we met. She had told me she lost all suicidal ideation when we we got together. I think being in a relationship with an understanding partner can definitely increase your will to live. The right relationship could even save a person entirely. But tread carefully

 

[LunarLight]

Yes, and not really. Now it does help though. But I was as so miserable at that time it didn't help me much.

 

[lastch]

My first and only relationship made me suicidal and is probably the reason I'm so messed up today. He had serious childhood trauma and came from a messed up family and it transferred to how he treated me. I was trauma bonded to him and there was different times in our relationship where both of us attempted to CTB over one another. We also both SH frequently. In the end, he became an addict and I felt so trapped in a messed up life that I felt the only way out was CTB. I got away but with severe mental issues.

 

[heatdeath]

I was suicidal before I was engaged and I'm still suicidal.

I don't talk about it with her. It's not her either, other reasons, maybe a little bit her actually, but let's see how far we get before I CTB. Maybe shit will turn around.

 

[TAW122]

I was and still am. Also, I never had a relationship nor am I interested in having one either, so I cannot answer whether it helps or not at all.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

Yes, I was. Relationship definitely helped, but it didn't last so… here we are.

 

[MyaMia]

Been suicidal since I was 11, married for 4 years now and if anything I feel worse because I keep fucking up which only makes me want to CTB more

I'm sure a relationship can be life saving for sone people but I am very much not being saved by it.

 

[leavingsoonx]

Basically the title.

Yes. And it helped a little but not a lot. I tried to KMS (stupid OD poorly) in front of spouse. I was toxic to them at times. Although they ended up being the one to have secretly cheated on me. But at one point, we were going to get married. It was finally good for a while. I felt like a normal person… like what I was suppose to be. But my mental health was still bad even with them. Looking back, I used to get jealous of him while dealing with my own trauma, although we were together. He had a good job and finically stable parents, although with problems and my life experience differed so much that I found myself accepted to his life while being jealous of it.

Then after, you have the memory of having a partner and the fate of being all alone.

 

[divinemistress36]

Relationships are so exhausting and overrated. There are rare cases where they're not, but please don't feel like you're missing out if you've never had one.

Ya and most people dont want to put up with someone who is mentally ill