I found out about this thread here relatively late and would also like to throw my hat in the ring.
My application will be more of a question/answer session in which I reveal as many details about me as possible that will give you a good picture of me and the decision that comes with it.
I will start with the basics and work my way up.
Do I meet the requirements?
Yes and no. I've been a member for 2 years, but the forum is more my thing.
Who am I?
I am a user like any other. I come from and live in DACH. DACH is the typical abbreviation for companies doing business in the German area.
D - Deutschland - Germany
A - Austria - Österreich - Austria
CH - Confoederatio Helvetica - Switzerland
I commute back and forth between these three countries all year round because of my job.
I exactly today 26 years old and was first diagnosed with depression more than 10 years ago. Since 6 years severe depression, since 5 years with BPD and since 2 years my depression is called "therapy resistant".
Do I know you?
Could be. I am, as you look at it, either the suicidal one who tested the minimum lethal dose of 2g SN and documented it accurately just for the forum including pictures and a decidedly long Q&A
OR the idiot who tested 2g SN even though he knew he could die.
I link my thread about it here for those who want to get an idea or who find the topic interesting.
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/testing-sn-how-to-get-to-hospital-fast.74903/
Why should we make you a moderator?
I don't know. If I were to describe myself, it is my absolute neutrality towards any topic here. The absolute unprejudiced attitude towards every user. In my thread I have received both positive and critical responses, all of which I have answered with the utmost respect. I see my mistakes and also correct them and am always looking to find a common denominator.
In my PM's anyone who had questions about anything or even just let out grief can get in touch. An answer will always come.
And that's the real main reason why I am writing this application. I have had private contact with so many users and received so many positive messages from people whose day was "saved" or just a little bit better just because someone listened and shared their grief.
And that actually brings us to the end, and the most important part I want to get off my chest here.
I rarely had months in my 10+ years of treatment where I didn't have at least one appointment with my doctor. Apart from the fact that my insurance company (fortunately) has spent almost a million euros on me and my therapy so far, I also have paid a 5-digit sum for my therapy. It all came to nothing. And it took a while but I'm okay with it. I can go and say: At least I tried.
In all this time I had contact with countless patients. Countless group meetings and acquired a great knowledge of depression, anxiety, suicide, etc.
My positions are clear:
Therapy: Yes, of course! But only under two conditions: Complete voluntariness and self-drive.
Assisted suicide: Is a human right for me. I'm a member of an assisted suicide organization since three years and am an active party member acting as a political lobbyist for the upcoming fundamental debate on our new regulations in Germany.
This is the end of my application and I hope you got some kind of picture of me.
I will end this text with a quote from the head of a psychiatric clinic in Austria who remains anonymous, where I was in therapy for 3 years:
"What if you never become happy in your life? That God, Zeus, your genes or whoever decided that you should not experience happiness whatsoever? What if your job is to make other people happy? That's what you've been doing your whole life. What if the only reason you're still alive is that without you the bloody world is going to get a little worse and many people won't have the opportunity to meet you".
Thank you for reading.
Icetea15