Venting Welp goddamit- unsure what to do again

[Sandwich280]

was sure for like two weeks straight that killing myself was the right move. suddenly got hit with some random optimism regarding life and now i have no ducking clue what to do. atleast ill have everything for SN delivered soon anyways, all id need is one day of being sure and id be gone. idk- maybe this feeling will pass by the morning. continuing to live would feel like such a fucking burden right now.

 

[Loaf of bread]

No need to rush things, you can take time to consider and think if needed. Dont feel pressure to hurry into decisions, feel free to take your time and figure stuff out. Especially with the feeling youre feeling.

You can reconsider ctb and attempt recovery, or keep the status kuo, take it later, or whatever. Just having a bus ticket doesnt mean you have to immediately use it day of. Consider your options and think about it, its up to you.

One could have SN and stuff laying around without immediately using it, just having it as a "just in case" for peace of mind. Some users have SN around for weeks or months without using it.

Whatever the case, sorry youre suffering and I wish you the best in whatever you choose.