charlavail
Student
- Mar 19, 2026
- 111
after taking months off of work for my MH, and going back to work on reduced leave i officially found out i have to go back in person on the 24th unless i pull some americans disability act letter out of my ass. like, this is why i think the universe hates me or god or whatever and i'm better off dead. if i'm even remotely trying a small bit to "get better" it's like i have to be ripped away from group therapy and go back into full time work at a place that was part of the reason that i got burnt out along with everything else in my life that ended up with me going to the mental hospital in january. i'm still not better, and my job is literally a block away form my ex's house which he was/is another big reason why i was ready to die. the office is in a general area that even if i think about it i start to panic. i just feel like the universe keeps throwing shit at my when i'm already at the bottom of the fucking well and it's making my already thin will to live even smaller.
