dykgot
despondent
- May 5, 2024
- 10
tired of being fat and ugly, trying to put in effort just be ugly, so there's less of me to clean up when i finalize my plan to CTB.
have had on and off bouts of eating disorder relapses over the years but this time i just want to stop eating, but i know it's hard. going to the gym with the lack of energy from that makes it feel nearly impossible at some points, and i give up so easily.
maybe my mental health will get better when i lose weight? or at least people will stop treating me like a zoo animal. and like i said before, if none of that happens at least there will be less of me to clean up when the time comes.
have had on and off bouts of eating disorder relapses over the years but this time i just want to stop eating, but i know it's hard. going to the gym with the lack of energy from that makes it feel nearly impossible at some points, and i give up so easily.
maybe my mental health will get better when i lose weight? or at least people will stop treating me like a zoo animal. and like i said before, if none of that happens at least there will be less of me to clean up when the time comes.
