Venting We are extremely insignificant

[willyoucrywhenIdie]

I don't know how to cope with the fact that we humans are so insignificant. We'll if we're lucky live an average life and be 80 years old and die. Our relatives or children will cry and eventually get used to being without us. They'll often remember or quote us, then occasionally, then seldomly, then completely stop talking about us and rarely mention us and then they'll stop mentioning us at all. Eventually everything that belonged to us; our clothes, letters, items will all be gone, unless someone makes a conscious effort to keep them but then why would they even bother?

And so there it goes, years of grinding and swimming high above the waters just so we could be forgotten forever and replaced like this. It's crazy how we spend years and years totally digging ourselves a grave, while still pretending that were digging for the foundations of our future. And what did it mean? The times where we'd cool down and have fun? Like drink or go to a vacation or have sex with someone we found really attractive. Were those the highlights of such an insignificant existence? Seems like so. I guess you really have it as you have it now and then it's just gone forever.

And so what if I stopped enjoying anything at all? What if nothing made me happy anymore. And all the promises that it could be better seemed like a giant lie. Then why would I even bother grinding until I dig myself my own grave while I could just do that right now, in a less agonizing and painful way? It's all so tiring.

 

[UnusedGate]

You've got a pessimistic view. Yea, everything positive we do doesn't matter but at the same time if you in the past did something that you regret, it doesn't matter. Since what we do doesn't matter, do what gives you enjoyment as long it does not prevent other from doing what they want. Plant a flower, the fact that you won't be remember for planting that flower or the fact that it'll die one day (just like you) does not mean you or other people can't get enjoyment from that flower.

 

[Dejected 55]

Being insignificant in the grand scheme of things is not a bad thing. I mean, it's just truth. Even the most important person you can think of is still insignificant in the grand scheme.

That's not the problem.

The problem is being insignificant to everyone.

I am fine with being insignificant to existence. I don't care about legacy or any of that. I just want to matter to someone, especially someone who also matters to me. Just one person. That's all I have ever asked... to be significant to her as she is significant to me... but I never get there... and that is what is unbearable to me.