Use bad words to describe yourself to others, imagine what you want to do to relief instead of doing it. Gain weight, use alcohol or other drugs available (alone preferably). Reject to meet other people. Be aggressive to others (I feel that if you do something to the person you love is like doing it to yourself). Waste all your money. Don't study or do mistakes at work. Be late. Don't get a shower everyday. Use old clothes. Don't clean your teeth. Get addicted to diazepam, may be you should go to the psychiatrist to obtain them. Go on motorcycle instead of a car. Ignore calls from people who care about you. Look always at the empty side of the bottle. Go to sleep late. Loose hope. Feel incapable of coping with things. Play computer games & read the bad news. Be afraid of anything outside of your room. Sleep as much as you can. Close your heart to others. Don't be communicative : they should guess what I want or need. Leave your confidence buried. Look down. Imagine situations that happened to you and was stressful or you would love to happen without confront them. Repeat the same mistakes, and feel that others are better, never think about solving the mistakes.