Help Ways to harm myself?

[Alwaysconfused]

I want new ways to harm myself that doesn't leave any marks. I wanna make myself suffer really bad without other people noticing. I really crave laying on my floor feeling like I'm already dead. When cutting I used to do that, lay on my floor and it would feel like I was already dead. Like some sort of high.
Honestly that has been the best feeling in my entire life, when I was at my lowest point in life and had my wrists slit and just bleed on the floor, nothing has ever beat that.

The only thing I can come up with is self starvation, but I need more than that.
(Sadly taking drugs and other substances are off the table due to my family would kick me out if they found out.)

 

[Little_Suzy]

You said, "I really crave laying on my floor feeling like I'm already dead." (Laxatives & enema)

You'll lie on the floor until you have enough energy to climb into the tub and warm yourself.