Does anyone else do this? I'm curious to hear other people's thoughts because I'm not sure why I even do it myself. I don't really remember how it started but it really affected me at first, I would just stare at a random spot and try to progress what I had just seen. At some point, I started seeking out gore videos to watch them after I had done something that I regretted, as a way to "punish" myself, I guess. Other times I would want to remind myself of how cruel and dangerous the world I live in is. But it feels like those videos don't really affect me anymore. I'm not saying this to be edgy or act like I'm tough for not reacting to it or something, it's just that I don't get that feeling anymore that I described earlier, the one where you're genuinely shaken and horrified by what you had seen. Despite this, I still go on gore sites and try to make myself feel something like that because I feel like I deserve to feel that way. I even rewatch ones that I still find at least somewhat hard to watch and that make me at least a little disturbed. I know I'm awful for watching videos of people suffering and dying but another part of me feels like because I'm such a horrible person, I deserve to be reminded of it by seeing equally horrible things.
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Bitcoin (BTC):Ethereum (ETH):Monero (XMR):I've had months where I've done this a few times, usually I watch suicide videos. It feels like a shitty thing to do (and maybe it is), but it's just another form of self harm after all. I promise you there are people watching that kind of stuff for much more sinister reasons than you or I.
Obviously, I would recommend you stop doing this, but that's like telling an anxious person to stop being anxious. Don't beat yourself too much if you do, and stay safe out there.
ihateittoo
Member
- Jun 9, 2026
- 49
ive watched a bit of gore on sites like wpd. i dont consider myself a fan of it and i dont at all align myself with a lot of the wpd userbase, i mostly would watch videos of mass shootings and people killing themselves. its a sort of morbid curiosity.
Omg the users on these sites... I don't even know what to say, they're just so entirely hate filled. I mean I know you can't expect anything different from a gore site but it still sucks to see.
FoxSauce
Emotionally unstable like an IKEA table
- Aug 23, 2024
- 1,405
Kind off. Is like I see the true side of himanity.
Idk I just is more of curiosity but like heres another reason I should die cuz everything getd worse.
Im trying not to be there atm tho
oneirataxia
muh ideals
- Apr 22, 2024
- 507
I don't think it's a bad thing but I can't relate to you at all. I don't seek that shit out. I am so depressed that I don't get any kind of twisted satisfaction out of trying to physically or emotionally hurt myself. I am past any attempts to philosophize, rationalize and ponder whether or not I "deserve it." I just feel pain and I want the pain to stop immediately. Even just listening to upbeat and happy music is painful in this state. I would do anything to feel normal.
sla_porra22
I HATE MOSQUITOES
- Nov 5, 2024
- 111
No. However, in the past I watched those kinds of videos to imagine myself in the place of the person who died (Especially during the B***G**** era). It helped a lot with suicidal thoughts and made me feel much calmer for some reason. I rarely felt bad or disgusted by it, but I decided to stop watching simply because I was having intrusive homicidal thoughts, I mean, more than would be normal for someone. And it really did decrease significantly when I stopped using it. But even today I imagine myself dead in grotesque ways, and 90% of my dreams are related to my death. Basically, it was something that, superficially, felt "good" to me, but it affected me negatively in deeper ways than I realized at the time. It's definitely not something to be proud of, and I think I've only spoken about it to a few people in my life.
Edit: And there was also the curiosity aspect. Extremely morbid, but I was curious about some specific things, especially those related to suicide. I wanted to see what the bodies looked like so I could better imagine myself in that situationLast edited:Similar threads
