Venting Wasting time before ctb

[DimaD]

I will ctb with SN in May, I have to aquire the things I need for it. In the meantime I have to keep myself busy. I have been meeting with friends and pursuing my interests. I realized quite a while ago, that although I really like these things , I do not feel anything at all anymore doing them. No Joy , no nothing. I just feel empty. No matter how hard I want to feel something. I just hope everything works out and these few months will pass fast.

 

[dyingslowly]

I do feel like that, you can use a remainder type app to schedule everything and then try to do other stuff that's how u don't have to keep track on what stuff you needed to do when. I am kinding it hard to believe that u even have friends or interests I am so depressed that I ca't even do stuff like anything. I just want to sleep and never come back.

 

[inverse-weibull]

I feel really similarly, I've also got a day picked out in May. It sort of just feels like I'm in limbo until then. I've been spending time with family and friends, doing some old hobbies, and going back to old media I liked but none of it really brings me any happiness. It almost feels inconsequential, as if none of it really matters since I won't be here for long. Hope these next weeks pass by quickly for both of us

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand just wanting the time to pass, I hope you find the peace you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[swankysoup]

Yeah feeling close to death makes everything seem so hollow and meaningless.