sadstuffie
Student
- Aug 11, 2020
- 157
i have always wondered if i was born to suffer this much.
having bpd, abusive family (physical, emotional, & some sexual), borderline abuse partner (keeps me isolated , said her therapist told her to do this. I'm never allowed to hang with her & her friends since 2 years ago), hated by everyone around me currently, last gf cheated on me, & the list goes on.
was i really born to suffer?? what did i do to deserve all of this? i just wanted to live a decent life & feel ok...but i cant have that. everytime i think i have that, i fuck everything up. people know the pain they've caused me & they do nothing to prevent it. i love everyone so much. so why do they hate me? i think everybody deserves happiness & love no matter what. i know people cant help that they are bad sometimes, but it's still painful.
i hope you guys understand what I'm saying. I'm sorry I'm such a burden to everyone
having bpd, abusive family (physical, emotional, & some sexual), borderline abuse partner (keeps me isolated , said her therapist told her to do this. I'm never allowed to hang with her & her friends since 2 years ago), hated by everyone around me currently, last gf cheated on me, & the list goes on.
was i really born to suffer?? what did i do to deserve all of this? i just wanted to live a decent life & feel ok...but i cant have that. everytime i think i have that, i fuck everything up. people know the pain they've caused me & they do nothing to prevent it. i love everyone so much. so why do they hate me? i think everybody deserves happiness & love no matter what. i know people cant help that they are bad sometimes, but it's still painful.
i hope you guys understand what I'm saying. I'm sorry I'm such a burden to everyone