Was going to ctb tonight. Thought about what you all said. Decided to do it in a hotel instead.

[Trashcan]

I thought about what everyone said and decided I'll do it in a motel or hotel room instead. I was getting everything prepared, wrote the note, etc. I was so excited. But then I realized I can't do this to my parents. It's inevitable they'll see my corpse, but at least they won't be the ones discovering me. I'll do it in a hotel or motel bathroom and put up a sign. I just have to think about the perfect date. I could have been very selfish tonight and just want to thank everyone for convincing me to reconsider my location. I'm not sure when I'll do it. But I really appreciate you guys talking out of doing it in my parent's house.

 

[sadsoul]

I'm glad you're here and reconsidered, I think doing it in a hotel room is better :)

Also, do you think it's selfish of me to ctb at home? I sadly have no other place where I could do partial...

 

[Trashcan]

I'm glad you're here and reconsidered, I think doing it in a hotel room is better :)

Also, do you think it's selfish of me to ctb at home? I sadly have no other place where I could do partial...

No. I do not. I just think it was selfish of me to when I have other options. But you're not selfish at all. And I really appreciate you standing up for me and evilangelgodess.

 

[TiredHorse]

I think you made a wise and considerate decision, Trashcan. I'm sorry for the anxiety that the delay brings, but I think you've done the right thing, and when the time comes to ctb you'll be the more peaceful for it.

Well done.

 

[sadsoul]

No. I do not. I just think it was selfish of me to when I have other options. But you're not selfish at all. And I really appreciate you standing up for me and evilangelgodess to youngthugluver.

Thank you. I've thought about doing partial in a forest, but it turns out there is no big forest nearby and finding a tree with a low, stable branch is quite difficult. EvilAngelGoddess and you are lovely, of course I had to stand up to him :)

 

[Trashcan]

I think you made a wise and considerate decision, Trashcan. I'm sorry for the anxiety that the delay brings, but I think you've done the right thing, and when the time comes to ctb you'll be the more peaceful for it.

Well done.

You're so kind. I really appreciate it.

Thank you. I've thought about doing partial in a forest, but it turns out there is no big forest nearby and finding a tree with a low, stable branch is quite difficult. EvilAngelGoddess and you are lovely, of course I had to stand up to him :)

That's fair. I also felt uncomfortable with the idea of ctb in a forest because even in a secluded area, someone might still find you.

 

[sadsoul]

That's fair. I also felt uncomfortable with the idea of ctb in a forest because even in a secluded area, someone might still find you.

I looked at forests/areas with trees on google maps and there are trails everywhere, you just can't find a place where you'd definitely be alone for some time, it's crazy.

 

[MAIO]

I thought about what everyone said and decided I'll do it in a motel or hotel room instead. I was getting everything prepared, wrote the note, etc. I was so excited. But then I realized I can't do this to my parents. It's inevitable they'll see my corpse, but at least they won't be the ones discovering me. I'll do it in a hotel or motel bathroom and put up a sign. I just have to think about the perfect date. I could have been very selfish tonight and just want to thank everyone for convincing me to reconsider my location. I'm not sure when I'll do it. But I really appreciate you guys talking out of doing it in my parent's house.

Make sure it's no where where your family typically goes. That way they don't have to avoid a location etc

 

[Trashcan]

Make sure it's no where where your family typically goes. That way they don't have to avoid a location etc

Good idea

 

[bigj75]

op what's your method?

I'm gonna do mine Ina hotel aswell.

 

[Trashcan]

op what's your method?

I'm gonna do mine Ina hotel aswell.

Exit bag

 

[YoungThugLover]

Called it

 

[Goldie]

I'm not sure whether I am happy or sad to see you still here. I thought about you yesterday and felt happy that you were going for it. You have to be sure though.

I'm glad you're here and reconsidered, I think doing it in a hotel room is better :)

Also, do you think it's selfish of me to ctb at home? I sadly have no other place where I could do partial...

I would say if you want to go then go. It's not selfish to do it at home. It's your life remember not theirs. Your parents will need to identify your body anyway. It's your decision though.

 

[TiredHorse]

Also, do you think it's selfish of me to ctb at home? I sadly have no other place where I could do partial...

If you have no other place, the question of where to ctb becomes moot.

It seems to me that "Selfish" is a loaded word around the suicidal. When we seek relief from our pain, we are accused of being selfish by those who are selfishly absorbed by foreboding of their own impending distress.

If you must ctb, and you have no other place to do so than at home, then you are not being selfish, you are taking the only road available to you.

 

[Goldie]

If you have no other place, the question of where to ctb becomes moot.

It seems to me that "Selfish" is a loaded word around the suicidal. When we seek relief from our pain, we are accused of being selfish by those who are selfishly absorbed by foreboding of their own impending distress.

If you must ctb, and you have no other place to do so than at home, then you are not being selfish, you are taking the only road available to you.

Yes, precisely

 

[Fcancer]

I'm not sure whether I am happy or sad to see you still here. I thought about you yesterday and felt happy that you were going for it. You have to be sure though.


I would say if you want to go then go. It's not selfish to do it at home. It's your life remember not theirs. Your parents will need to identify your body anyway. It's your decision though.

To be fair theres a difference between pulling a sheet back to quickly identify a body, and walking into your childs room to find them hanging by their neck in your family home.

I would imagine the mental scars are far worse for the latter.

 

[IfHeDiesHeDies]

To be fair theres a difference between pulling a sheet back to quickly identify a body, and walking into your childs room to find them hanging by their neck in your family home.

I would imagine the mental scars are far worse for the latter.

Agreed, especially if they still have to live in the same house. That's mental torture for them 24/7. Further, the price of properties go down significantly where there has been a suicide.