Venting wanting to relapse again

[nonameno5]

only thing keeping me from relapsing again tonight is that im too tired and lazy to deal with any cleanup. even just getting some toilet paper and having to hold it there until it stops bleeding just sounds like too much work rn

anyway.. how was everyones days? or how is it going? whats currently on your mind? say anything

 

[FuneralCry]

For me existing is always so painful and torturous, as long as I exist I'll only hope to not exist, to me existing really is just suffering all for the sake of it, I'll always see existing as just waiting to die and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently, all I want is to never wake ever again, I wish you the best.

 

[WakingNightmare]

It was boring, just like every day before
and most likely every day after

 

[joaosembraco12]

It was a good day, nothing to complain about, I've had much worse days. Today there's the Champions League final, I'm not excited or anything, I gave up my passion for soccer a long time ago, but it's a big event, I'm gonna watch it, maybe it'll work as "sedation" for a while.

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

Just feeling like a dead body that won't stop moving. Dark blackish-blue bags under my eyes for no reason other than something biological about my brain no doubt.

 

[Scythe]

Shoving myself into the void that I've created in my heart because my friend has decided to ditch me.
Also SH is a lot of work sometimes man, the cleanup is so annoying after I bleed out on cloth/bed cause a wound didn't stop bleeding after I cleaned it the first time or whatever.

 

[FishRain3469]

Ehhh... I don't even fckn know, I'm so damn sick and tired of being sick and tired.... dealing with life on life's terms. Fml, wish I could just gather up the strength and blow my brains out already. Fml

 

[Almost Dead]

Omfg I feel you on this. The amount of times I've wanted to SH but just did not have the energy/patience to sit there and wait until it stops bleeding LMAO. Tbh though, if something helps you not relapse, then who cares how silly the reasoning may seem. A win is a win or whatever they say!