wanting to ctb while hugging my pets (hanging vs SN)

[hivadic681]

I know they'll be fine, my family is alive and doing well, my pets live with them while I'm off at college. I'm going home soon and was planning to go into the woods at night (rural area) and hand myself with a 16mm jute rope and partial suspension, but I'm scared to be alone. I want to hold my dog and my cat while I'm doing it, so I might be able to do SN instead (I read the megathread on it and will read some more later on, I can get SN online with no problems). Does anyone else feel like that? Are you scared to do it alone, or do you want to be alone?

 

[90starve]

i want to hold a photo of my boyfriend while i CTB - i would still be alone, but he would be there with me in spirit. i can't imagine going through with it without a photo in my hand as i pass.

 

[azurarcher]

With SN there's a big chance you might puke at some point during the process (can happen even after you become unconscious) and animals might try to lick it, what's worse dogs like licking salty things so they might want to continue after trying. I'm going to do it in a forest, I'm not too scared to die alone if I'm surrounded by nature

 

[swanegg333]

ive thought about this a lot too, i dont want to pass without my pets, but if youre doing SN it could be dangerous for them. an antiemetic will greatly reduce the chance of puking but after you pass out there's still a nonzero chance and dogs have a tendency to lick salty things, and, well, you get the picture. N might be something to consider if you can get it, its peaceful and the risk of vomiting is low.

and, while i do know that this forum isn't the place for preaching, your pets do care about you, and your passing will stress them out, even if they arent there to witness it. i dont know your situation, but its something to consider for anyone like us.


as for the second part, yeah, i really dont want to die alone. but everyone around me is getting better while i just keep getting worse lol. i dont trust people enough to CTB as a double with someone i dont know, though, so i am kinda frustrated with that. Obviously i dont want more people to CTB because to even get to this state is miserable, and its not something i really wish on anyone, but it feels lonely. Not being understood by anyone, and being dismissed and belittled by people who claim to understand, as if i haven't been like this for years already.

I hope that whatever happens with you, its peaceful and pleasant.

 

[FuneralCry]

I would always prefer to die alone personally, far away from any people.

 

[AshClouds]

If you die while holding them, your arms will stiffen up and they may not be able to break free. I'm sorry you're suffering so much

 

[spøgelse]

your arms may stiffe n up or you may throw up after youu pass out and then an animal might try to lick it

 

[hivadic681]

Thanks, so SN is no go then. I don't want anything bad to happen to my dog if she happens to eat the vomit. If I did partial suspension in a way where I'm sitting/kneeling on the floor, it could be doable for me to at least keep touching them, right?

 

[Aisley]

It's possible that seizures effect dogs in ways we don't yet fully understand, and yours could cause your dog to react in ways you won't see coming. But at some point, he's going to know what's going on, and be, at the least, disturbed by it.

 

[swanegg333]

Thanks, so SN is no go then. I don't want anything bad to happen to my dog if she happens to eat the vomit. If I did partial suspension in a way where I'm sitting/kneeling on the floor, it could be doable for me to at least keep touching them, right?

yeah, that could probably work. just be careful on how you position yourself because rigor mortis is another thing to be weary of. i hope everything goes well for you.