Want to move up my ctb date

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I want to do it in January, January is the best month i can get. I wanted to do it earlier but October is too early for me, November is my mother's birthday even if we don't celebrate and I never liked her anyway, I don't want her to celebrate when I'm gone. It's my birthday in December and I don't want my sisters to spend my birthday plus Christmas alone. I wish I could leave earlier.
I don't want let anxiety and SI take me over in this time.
Anyone else who has no good timing? Or tips how not let anxiety control me?

 

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I could have written this text because I'm in the middle of it. I know I'm going to CTB in the future but I don't know what date to set : December 31st while everyone celebrates the new year, a tour of the planet around the sun, a symbol of life. But also at the beginning of December to avoid this month that I hate. Or January, at the beginning of 2023 to give me time. I can't help you too much on this but it is true that it is a practical question that deserves reflection. And despite this certainty of the CTB, it's interesting to see that setting a date is really not easy.

I'm also going through (since considering setting the date) a period of anxiety where the SI seems to pop up. I don't know how I'm going to do it, if I'm going to get there. I think I really have to prepare myself psychologically. I don't know what to advise you on that. The SI seems quite present according to the forum, but other people manage to prepare and be relatively calm on the scheduled day.

Good luck to you.

 

[FuneralCry]

Maybe it may reduce the anxiety that people experience if they have a method plan that they feel confident that it will succeed. If someone has a method plan then they can just leave when the time feels right. I think that many people manage to overcome the SI either when they have this feeling of certainty or they reach a desperate point and they just know that it's time to leave. I do think that it can be difficult setting a date for ctb as after all life is unpredictable and uncertain and things can potentially get in the way.

I just think that only the individual knows when it's time to leave this cruel world, I really wish that it's easier to leave all of the suffering behind, if ctb was more straightforward I would have left a while ago.

 

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Maybe it may reduce the anxiety that people experience if they have a method plan that they feel confident that it will succeed. If someone has a method plan then they can just leave when the time feels right. I think that many people manage to overcome the SI either when they have this feeling of certainty or they reach a desperate point and they just know that it's time to leave. I do think that it can be difficult setting a date for ctb as after all life is unpredictable and uncertain and things can potentially get in the way.

I just think that only the individual knows when it's time to leave this cruel world, I really wish that it's easier to leave all of the suffering behind, if ctb was more straightforward I would have left a while ago.

Thank you, your anwser helps me alot.
Im conferent in my method, I know I won't survive it. I have some things to do, like clean everything up. But when this is done, Im ready. I think I shouldn't focus on one date, I should go when its right, like you said.

I could have written this text because I'm in the middle of it. I know I'm going to CTB in the future but I don't know what date to set : December 31st while everyone celebrates the new year, a tour of the planet around the sun, a symbol of life. But also at the beginning of December to avoid this month that I hate. Or January, at the beginning of 2023 to give me time. I can't help you too much on this but it is true that it is a practical question that deserves reflection. And despite this certainty of the CTB, it's interesting to see that setting a date is really not easy.

I'm also going through (since considering setting the date) a period of anxiety where the SI seems to pop up. I don't know how I'm going to do it, if I'm going to get there. I think I really have to prepare myself psychologically. I don't know what to advise you on that. The SI seems quite present according to the forum, but other people manage to prepare and be relatively calm on the scheduled day.

Good luck to you.

Yeah, me too. I try to have a calm mind and manipulate my mind a bit, so that the SI is not hitting. I mean its normal, SI is normal in the human nature. This is what I always wanted, now the day is comming. I should be happy. Im happy.