Discussion Want to CTB by but don’t want to traumatize my family when they find me

[scarletstarlet]

I want to CTB by partial hanging as it's the most accessible and efficient method to me right now. However, I really don't want to traumatize my family by having them find me after I CTB. I'm considering doing it at a hotel, but that feels like a dick move for the cleanup staff as well. It's hard to decide what to do.

I'm also considering just disappearing- going somewhere without telling anybody and then CTB, and scheduling an email to be sent at a later date with my CTB note for my loved ones. I'm leaning towards disappearing, because I don't want the image of my unalive body to be burned in my family's memory :(

 

[expiredfckmeat]

That same thought is what stopped me last time, didn't feel right leaving my last mess for them to clean up. I'm thinking about the disappearing thing a lot but I've screwed that up before, too... I'm sorry.

 

[DeathMarch66]

If you're open to it SN might be your best option, from what I've heard one of the main reasons it's so popular is because it looks generally peaceful for the most part, not as morbid as some other methods. That might be your best bet if that's your concern. Anyway, thanks for sharing your thoughts, safe travels!

 

[scarletstarlet]

If you're open to it SN might be your best option, from what I've heard one of the main reasons it's so popular is because it looks generally peaceful for the most part, not as morbid as some other methods. That might be your best bet if that's your concern. Anyway, thanks for sharing your thoughts, safe travels!

I've looked into it but it's really hard to get the supplies. Expensive too.

 

[DeathMarch66]

I've looked into it but it's really hard to get the supplies. Expensive too.

Sorry to hear that, I'll do some research and see what I can find for you, please PM if you have anything you wanna talk about.

 

[heartbroken12]

If you're open to it SN might be your best option, from what I've heard one of the main reasons it's so popular is because it looks generally peaceful for the most part, not as morbid as some other methods. That might be your best bet if that's your concern. Anyway, thanks for sharing your thoughts, safe travels!

I have the same concerns as OP, and I wish SN didn't turn you blue/mottled

 

[DeathMarch66]

I have the same concerns as OP, and I wish SN didn't turn you blue/mottled

I completely get it cause SN isn't my chosen method either. That being said my circumstances are different I don't mind a "scary" or "traumatizing" ending cause no one I'm worried about will find me. However, with everything considered if I was going that route I'd probably still choose SN, I'm sure most people would agree when I say that turning blue is still considerably better than some of the other results/risks from many other methods. Bottom line is SN perfect, absolutely not, is it pretty good for this particular purpose I'd say so.

 

[rtdpete]

alot of people in that position include myself...in reality i got like 20-25 years to live when individuals have dementia totally don't know anything but i want to go home and who knows CTB soon rather than later that time.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hate how we exist in a world where there is no legalised assisted suicide as having that everywhere would mean that others won't be shocked by finding a suicide scene. It's such a cruel world we exist in where people cannot just die in peace and where there is so much secrecy surrounding suicide.