Want so much to be well and me again

[Susan Caswell]

I cant believe this has even happened i was very healthy fit and well happy living wonderful life. Deafening jet plane roaring hammering drilling hissing tinnitus both ears came on from nowhere 3 years ago it was loud but not like this plus hyperacusis so extreme all normal sounds are deafening i cant take tap running or kettle or gas hob my own voice makes my ears vibrate. I can stand a lot and have many operations coped always as could eat well rest watch TV read sleep. I had so many interests and so much to still do on my "Bucket List" this came on from nowhere. Millions of people live with it ok live happy lives ive had the hissing for years and i did never even heard it unless i thought about but i cant take this as loud as jet plane the hammering is horrific i can feel it just wish stop id be happiest person on the planet. Im not strong enough to hang myself, i dont have enough medication, ive tried to suffocate myself darent do N after reading the young lady that took it and lived and all she went through that would be my luck too. The anxiety is crippling me and panic but this forever i cant i cant live in this much torture i cant eat or sleep or go out lost 2 stone most of my hair body jerking 3 years of this taken huge toll i thought it would stop never thought it could get to level like this its the most dementing torture no one should be left like this. Ive tried everything there is to try to get it down or stopped i just dont understand it my ears were perfect my hearing was i ate well lived well always out busy so happy i cant believe this is my fate if just go down level i can stand i want to live but as i was want to die for peace and dont know how i still come back to jumping but terrified i dont die and crippled or stop eating and drinking i barely eat now i was capable sensible caring generous survived cancer why this now it should be happy carefree time of life just not this nothing else would have made me this ill or suicidal. I had no clue it was so hard to end this. Anyone any further thought either to help or stop the tinnitus or how best to go. Im still trying for Pegasos in Switzerland but im not great with technology and they need so much information and documents. Can anyone make this stop or know cure id love to be messaging its down stopped i can live with it im so very tired i was such a good sleeper but how do you sleep with noise so loud day and night its taken terrible toll im sorry to keep messaging just keep hoping someone somewhere in the world has answer 2020 and they cant stop noise in ears. I can find no one World Wide with tinnitus and hyperacusis anything close to this if i could live with it i would be i had so much left to do just not come id be just as i was living life to the full i never anxiety could make you so ill in huge mess with medication none has even calmed me and very hard to get off

 

[Goodbye710]

I have heard some use lasers/lllt placed in ear to help tinnitus.
You can look at amazon for reviews

 

[Susan Caswell]

I have heard some use lasers/lllt placed in ear to help tinnitus.
You can look at amazon for reviews

I wouldnt dare put laser in my ears i dont think unless i knew it would 100% stop this but thank you

 

[Blueman]

Hello Susan
Sorry I can't assist in terms of resolving your issues.
Your posts are so heartbreaking.
I'm 55 and was having a great life but I messed up my own fault unlike you who are blameless.
Why not try the lasers surely nothing to lose after all many people have laser eye surgery.
Whatever happens I'm wishing you all the best

 

[BPD Barbie]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/tinnitus.46879/

I saw this post a little while ago and thought of you but wasn't sure if I should tag you in it or not.

 

[Susan Caswell]

Hello Susan
Sorry I can't assist in terms of resolving your issues.
Your posts are so heartbreaking.
I'm 55 and was having a great life but I messed up my own fault unlike you who are blameless.
Why not try the lasers surely nothing to lose after all many people have laser eye surgery.
Whatever happens I'm wishing you all the best

Thank you i just cant understand it at all or severity or how ill its made me. Im so sorry your suffering too x

 

[Susan Caswell]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/tinnitus.46879/

I saw this post a little while ago and thought of you but wasn't sure if I should tag you in it or not.

Thanks i have them not helped sadly wish they had x

 

[cappuccinogirl]

Hello Susan
Sorry I can't assist in terms of resolving your issues.
Your posts are so heartbreaking.
I'm 55 and was having a great life but I messed up my own fault unlike you who are blameless.
Why not try the lasers surely nothing to lose after all many people have laser eye surgery.
Whatever happens I'm wishing you all the best

Hi hun. Many people find lasers helpful. They're not dangerous. Its low level laser. I feel for you. I've got a bad physical problem can't cope with also. Feel free to message xxx