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wastingpotential
drowning, always.
- Feb 8, 2023
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i lost my cats, and i’m still not allowed to cry
i posted awhile back that i’m being kicked out of my apartment, today is my last day here. i’ve packed my final suitcase. a few hours earlier, i went to give my cats away to a vet, who will then take them to an association for adoption. we couldn’t keep them because the person i’m being forced...
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Today a year ago was the last time i saw my cats alive. I didnt know it would be my last. I was ready to do everything in my power to tell everyone around me to fuck off and get them back.
I haven't stopped crying, rereading messages with people from this time that hurt me. It sucks. I feel like im just seething with anger i cant even take out on anything and this sadness has just melted my heart into a fucking void
I dont feel safe living on this planet at the same time as the people who abused me. I want to see my boys again so bad. All ive tried since last year is to ctb and it always fails or backfires. Im so so tired