wanna leave in the next 30 minutes

[Ramirez]

but im fucking terrified. iprocrastinated as far as i could. everything is ready. im pretty drunk already. need to leave NOW. but its so scary. someone promise me it will be okay. it would really help. cant wait till tomorrow. thanx in advance.

 

[ecmnesia]

are you sure it is a good idea to try whatever your method is while drunk? chances of failure highly increase that way. please be careful. but if do go on, good luck. i wish you peace.

 

[Ramirez]

i set it up. ive tried before. i just have to get my head in the noose and kick the stool. itll work im sure. just so cared of what comes next.

 

[ecmnesia]

i am sorry you are scared. wish I could hug you right now.

i hope you'll find nothing but the sweet embrace of nothingness. but i can't assure you it will be like this.

if you feel like you can't go on, please reconsider. you still have time if you are not ready yet, it's ok.

 

[Ramirez]

it has to be tonight. ive burned all the bridges. i just hoped someone could take some of the fear off of it tbh.

 

[ecmnesia]

i am sorry. i really am. i don't know what to say to comfort you.

 

[Ramirez]

i am sorry. i really am. i don't know what to say to comfort you.

just tell me its gonna be okay. seems so horrific being a dead body. i know i wont be there. but still cant get it outta my head...

 

[ecmnesia]

it will.

i truly believe it. soon, it will all be over. it's like sleeping i guess, one moment you are conscious and then you are not.

but please be careful while doing it. if you are determined to do so, that's it. if there is still doubt inside you, you can still reconsider and give another try later.

 

[CoalmineCanary]

I'd hold your hand if I could.

 

[_Kaira_]

If you're certain you cannot give it a little more time,
perhaps some music will help calm your nerves? I personally really enjoy this song, and listen to it whenever I feel worked up or anxious.



Proceed carefully and find your peace, friend. The world will not be able to hurt you any longer.

You still have the option right now of backing out.

 

[Ramirez]

it will.

i truly believe it. soon, it will all be over. it's like sleeping i guess, one moment you are conscious and then you are not.

but please be careful while doing it. if you are determined to do so, that's it. if there is still doubt inside you, you can still reconsider and give another try later.
i am not sure I can say this. but you are scared. you seem unsure...

im a coward. i been planning this for years. and had 3 attemps. it doenst get easier. i need to be out thought.

 

[ecmnesia]

i don't know what it will be like in my last moments... but I'd like to remember the sweetest memories i have. listen to my favorite song one last time.

breath deep. there is still time.

im a coward. i been planning this for years. and had 3 attemps. it doenst get easier. i need to be out thought.

it won't ever be easy. that doesn't mean you are a coward tho. death is scary. jumping towards the unknown is scary. that's ok.

 

[Ramirez]

If you're certain you cannot give it a little more time,
perhaps some music will help calm your nerves? I personally really enjoy this song, and listen to it whenever I feel worked up or anxious.



Proceed carefully and find your peace, friend. The world will not be able to hurt you any longer.

You still have the option right now of backing out.

love that song!

 

[ecmnesia]

are you in a place where you can see the stars? take a glimpse of them. look at how they shine. maybe you'll get to be one when this is over, i know this is childish, but one can dream, huh?
can you feel the breeze in your skin where you are? enjoy it one last time. take it slow. you may not want to go back, but you can sure appreciate the little things one last time.

 

[Deleted member 23586]

*hugs* I wish I could hold you and make you feel better. I hope you find peace whatever that means for you love. Just be careful ok? If you change your mind its ok, but you are no coward. You are just hurting and scared. There's nothing wrong with that.

 

[_Kaira_]

love that song!

EDIT: did an oopsie, edited my quote.

I do as well :), it will most likely be the final song I listen to when I CTB. It helps me feel at peace, and I hope it makes you feel the same.

Many hugs, and much love. No matter what you choose, things will be alright.

 

[dropdeadfred]

We're all scared, Phil. We're all the same. You have to make the right decision for you.
Take a breath. Weigh the consequences. I personally don't want you to have a botched attempt.

 

[ecmnesia]

you've said you burned the bridges. but please, if you feel like right now it's not the time... don't be ashamed to build a new one, even if it's not meant to last long.

we might not be there to hold your hand, but no matter what we will try out best to give you support. i hope you are feeling a little bit better...
you deserve to die with dignity and in peace.

 

[Ramirez]

gonna listen to music for a few minutes and leave. thank you everyone who replied. means so much to me serouisly. i was freaking out real bad. and i trust you guys that everything will be okay :D. hope this works.

 

[ecmnesia]

farewell Phil. wish you a peaceful journey from the bottom of my heart. we will miss you

 

[dropdeadfred]

gonna listen to music for a few minutes and leave. thank you everyone who replied. means so much to me serouisly. i was freaking out real bad. and i trust you guys that everything will be okay :D. hope this works.

Great call on the music. I'm here for you. Reach out if you wish.

 

[Deleted member 23586]

Bai Bai sweet baby. *hugs*

 

[x~Sophia~x]

We're all with you Phil, you're not alone. Please don't be afraid to back out if you're not totally sure about leaving. I wish you the very best, whatever you decide.

 

[Ramirez]

more liquid courage..

 

[virginiawoolf86]

I like to think that when we go our energy transforms into stardust, forever a part of the cosmos, without consciousness, just the very rudimentary core of our being. And when people gaze out into the starry night sky, you'll be there in full glory.

It may be wishful thinking, but I've always adored the cosmos and the beacon of hope eternal they represent. Maybe I'm a sentimental at heart. I've always been a softy.

I hope my ramblings have brought you some sort of solace for what seems like a really difficult time for you. I hope you find your peace.

 

[Nimbus]

I hope you find peace in whatever way works best for you. Sending soothing vibes.

 

[Ghost2211]

Are you feeling any better op?

 

[Disappointered]

I wish you safe travels and eternal peace.

 

[CoalmineCanary]

Something peaceful if needed.

 

[_Kaira_]