Venting Waking up every day is horrible

[Praestat_Mori]

Waking up every morning is so horrible knowing that another useless day ahead. I wish it was easier to get the meds and drugs for one of the researched ODs. Summer sucks for CO method. I don't know what to do, I want to get out of the hole or just CTB. No way out as usual.

 

[venin]

Waking up every morning is so horrible knowing that another useless day ahead. I wish it was easier to get the meds and drugs for one of the researched ODs. Summer sucks for CO method. I don't know what to do, I want to get out of the hole or just CTB. No way out as usual.

Hugs hope we find a way soon

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yeah, definitely. I hate waking up in the morning. It's always such a terrible feeling of dread on what lies ahead.

 

[MyChoiceAlone]

every morning? lol . i wish i had regular sleep. i just get it when i can and i hate that feeling of consciousness. first couple seconds actually feel kinda nice but then it dawns on you that you are not yet dead.

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

Awful world and society, im sorry for you

 

[CH349]

I know how you feel. I cant muster the strength to wake out of bed sometimes, I cant sleep either. So much suffering

 

[SadPingu]

Can relate. Wake up and for the first few moments feel fine. Then I remember everything and count down until I can go to bed again.

 

[.seethroughme.]

I go to bed most nights just not wanting to wake up. If I could just push a button and be gone, I would do it in a heartbeat.

 

[Hollowman]

How does summer effect the CO method?

 

[Praestat_Mori]

How does summer effect the CO method?

When you have an avg. room temperature of 28-30° with high humidity day & night it will even be hotter when placing the ready BBQ into the room / tent!

 

[アホペンギン]

I'm sorry that you have to go through this. The society truly makes it so hard to ctb now. I send you my best regards. :)

 

[FuneralCry]

I also find waking up to be something so incredibly dreadful, it's so awful to me how we cannot just choose to leave in our sleep, it really shouldn't be so difficult to permanently escape from this existence that we were burdened with.

 

[ringo99]

I dream of living in a world where nembutal, fentanyl, barbiturates, morphine etc. are available over the counter for a easy, painless death. Then I wake up and the torture starts all over again.

 

[SolomonKado]

I feel your pain. It hurts to think of why your life has become. It doesn't feel like it ever did when things were good. Why do we have to go through shit like this? Why is there so much freaking tragedy in this stupid life? I just want it over with. I hope whatever you look for you have luck and find peace on whatever path you choose.

 

[Kurai]

It's like waking up to another bad dream, over and over again with no way out. I feel you, I wish to never wake up to this horrible world.

 

[ChangeWaiter]

Can relate. Wake up and for the first few moments feel fine. Then I remember everything and count down until I can go to bed again.

I relate to that. There is this short period of time that feels actually enjoyable - between waking up and remembering myself and my life situation.

It's like I'm on my first day at my dream job, when I don't yet know what to expect, but then I get onboarded and quickly realize, that's it's another toxic environment.
And even if this environment is not perceived as that toxic by others. Well, I'm not the others, I'm me, this environment (called life) feels toxic to me!