Waking up every morning is so horrible knowing that another useless day ahead. I wish it was easier to get the meds and drugs for one of the researched ODs. Summer sucks for CO method. I don't know what to do, I want to get out of the hole or just CTB. No way out as usual.
venin
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- Jul 28, 2023
- 757
hope we find a way soon 
Yeah, definitely. I hate waking up in the morning. It's always such a terrible feeling of dread on what lies ahead.
MyChoiceAlone
sleep deprived and/or drunk
- Jul 23, 2023
- 1,212
every morning? lol . i wish i had regular sleep. i just get it when i can and i hate that feeling of consciousness. first couple seconds actually feel kinda nice but then it dawns on you that you are not yet dead.
EndJstifiesTheMeans
Bad english, didn't go to school sorry
- May 14, 2023
- 448
CH349
Member
- Aug 5, 2023
- 87
I know how you feel. I cant muster the strength to wake out of bed sometimes, I cant sleep either. So much suffering
SadPingu
Go out like a spark, my trauma and me.
- Jul 27, 2023
- 61
Can relate. Wake up and for the first few moments feel fine. Then I remember everything and count down until I can go to bed again.
.seethroughme.
This life has been more than enough for me 😂
- Aug 6, 2023
- 43
I go to bed most nights just not wanting to wake up. If I could just push a button and be gone, I would do it in a heartbeat.
When you have an avg. room temperature of 28-30° with high humidity day & night it will even be hotter when placing the ready BBQ into the room / tent!
アホペンギン
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- Jul 10, 2023
- 2,199
I'm sorry that you have to go through this. The society truly makes it so hard to ctb now. I send you my best regards. :)
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 38,945
I also find waking up to be something so incredibly dreadful, it's so awful to me how we cannot just choose to leave in our sleep, it really shouldn't be so difficult to permanently escape from this existence that we were burdened with.
ringo99
Arcanist
- Apr 18, 2023
- 424
I dream of living in a world where nembutal, fentanyl, barbiturates, morphine etc. are available over the counter for a easy, painless death. Then I wake up and the torture starts all over again.
SolomonKado
This is taking too long…
- Jul 4, 2023
- 424
I feel your pain. It hurts to think of why your life has become. It doesn't feel like it ever did when things were good. Why do we have to go through shit like this? Why is there so much freaking tragedy in this stupid life? I just want it over with. I hope whatever you look for you have luck and find peace on whatever path you choose.
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Kurai
Suffering
- Jul 23, 2023
- 242
It's like waking up to another bad dream, over and over again with no way out. I feel you, I wish to never wake up to this horrible world.
I relate to that. There is this short period of time that feels actually enjoyable - between waking up and remembering myself and my life situation.
It's like I'm on my first day at my dream job, when I don't yet know what to expect, but then I get onboarded and quickly realize, that's it's another toxic environment.
And even if this environment is not perceived as that toxic by others. Well, I'm not the others, I'm me, this environment (called life) feels toxic to me!
