Waiting for the bus

[GreatCoal123]

Here, they refer to suicide as "CtB" (Catch the Bus), and it seems like a fitting expression. Dying isn't something you can just do anytime; it requires the right circumstances and a strong will. My current situation feels like having missed a bus once.

I attempted to hang myself with a tie several times, but when it seemed impossible, I bought a sturdy climbing rope. I was determined to succeed with a proper hanging. Everything was ready, and all I had to do was kick the chair away, but suddenly fear gripped me, and various thoughts flooded my mind. So, I decided to stop.

Since then, I have been indulging in everything I wanted to do and spending money recklessly. If life had continued like this, I might not have even thought about suicide.

Ultimately, I will soon hang myself. But I keep hesitating, delaying that moment.

Even though I remind myself of the reasons to hang myself, the hesitation persists. My life is already in ruins, and I should be dead, yet fear keeps me from doing it. I try to wait for the 'bus' to come again, but I worry that it may never arrive. What should I do?

 

[whywere]

I will 1st state that I am NOT pro-life nor pro ctb, each and every soul's decision is their own and their own exclusively, another pro-choice.

I will state though that ctb is one and done, no do overs, I have had 2 attempts, and those 2 attempts taught me one aspect, no knee jerk reactions, read emotional reactions, but extremely well thought out decisions and perspectives.

I will not say much more than this, as whatever a person chooses, should be with their own heart, mind and soul and NOT influenced by others.

Take time and stock then move forward.

Hugs and caring thoughts to you,

Walter

 

[jimmyinnout]

If we had as much freedom as we want, we could didcover what makes life worth living,

Instead, tha priviledge is limited to individuals such as: jeffery epstein, donald trump, bill clinton, and friends.