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catharspiral

catharspiral

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May 20, 2023
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I can't exist in this frightening world. Countless attempts to bury my terror but it completely erupts when I remember that I am truly alone. It's like I'm either floating through this life as quietly as a ghost or a manic, blubbering mess, screaming for someone to care. I would scream and beg my mother to love me, to just listen, just be here with me. I'd go absolutely insane. I know it's dramatic but I really get that way sometimes, it's embarrassing to admit. I'm an adult woman. But I've always wanted to feel safe and loved. I think a life without trust and love is pointless, so is one where you spend the entire rest of it fixing what should've never been broken to begin with. All hope, collapsed
 
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90starve

i don’t know who i am
May 8, 2023
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i can really relate to everything you've said here </3

knowing that you're alone is terrifying realisation to make - i keep longing for close relationships, but everybody just seems so distant.

i often don't feel real. i don't know who i am - life passes me by while i sit and watch - like a ghost, as you said.

i don't see any reason to continue to exist when i remain to be alone. is there any point clinging to life when there is nobody around to share it with?
 
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catharspiral

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i can really relate to everything you've said here </3

knowing that you're alone is terrifying realisation to make - i keep longing for close relationships, but everybody just seems so distant.

i often don't feel real. i don't know who i am - life passes me by while i sit and watch - like a ghost, as you said.

i don't see any reason to continue to exist when i remain to be alone. is there any point clinging to life when there is nobody around to share it with?
Just one person understanding these feelings brought tears to my eyes - I'm sending warmth and hugs, I hope you're able to experience feeling real and being close to others, even for one day
 
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Just one person understanding these feelings brought tears to my eyes - I'm sending warmth and hugs, I hope you're able to experience feeling real and being close to others, even for one day
thank you so much for your kind words <3 there are plenty of people on the forum who will understand your experiences too :)
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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This world really is a dreadful place to exist in and there certainly is no real relief from suffering as long as one exists here, it must be so tiring what you are going through. But anyway I wish you the best.
 
Slasher

Slasher

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Jun 6, 2023
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loneliness is for sure a killer, and I can definitely get what you mean with a life without trust and love is pointless. Maslow's hierarchy of needs literally puts love and belonging right after food, water and shelter. Love is in my opinion as important as having a roof over my head and bread on my table. as a young teen I was deprived of love and attention no friends, no good family, no female attention and seeing the people around me have all the love that I so yearn for crushed me and led to my first attempt. I am more than grateful to have found love even if long distance and get that female attention IRL that I so ached for. I wish you the best of luck on your journey and you will find the one right for you eventually. ily take care<3
 

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