They are always complaining that I don't speak much. While that might be true (I'm not the most talkative guy) they are at fault too. I have to carefully pick what I say or they'll go on a rant about my friends / me / my hobbies or literally anything else. I always feel like a surgeon carefully picking a tool for a operation. They are also incredibly homophobic so I'll probably stay in the closest for a long time (if I ever leave). Any mention of lgbt on TV is met with "you can't watch a thing without these faggots" said by my father. I'm afraid to do anything from fear that they'll criticise me. I think I wish they would die.
However I really don't know what to think about them. We are in lower higher class so I never worried about money. I've causally got like 15k of my currency (about 4 months wage) sitting in a savings account cuz I don't know what to spend it on. (My pocket money isn't that big I just hardly ever buy anything). I attend extracurricular lessons to help me with school work. My bedroom is the size of a small flat. Even tho I have probably every material thing a guy my age would want I still want to kill myself / my parents dead.
I know the most logical thing would probably be to cut contact with them but I really don't know what to do. Move to a different city? Change my name so noone will find me? Perhaps that's the solution but I'd feel like such an asshole considering what they gave me.
However I really don't know what to think about them. We are in lower higher class so I never worried about money. I've causally got like 15k of my currency (about 4 months wage) sitting in a savings account cuz I don't know what to spend it on. (My pocket money isn't that big I just hardly ever buy anything). I attend extracurricular lessons to help me with school work. My bedroom is the size of a small flat. Even tho I have probably every material thing a guy my age would want I still want to kill myself / my parents dead.
I know the most logical thing would probably be to cut contact with them but I really don't know what to do. Move to a different city? Change my name so noone will find me? Perhaps that's the solution but I'd feel like such an asshole considering what they gave me.
