Jisatsu
黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
- Jan 5, 2025
- 2,012
I feel like I'm rotting from the inside out. Like there's something infected in me that never heals. Every day I wake up and wonder why I even bothered. I'm so tired of pretending, of holding it together for everyone else when I'm already in pieces.
It's like I'm screaming and no one hears me. Or worse...they hear me and just walk away.
I'm not lazy. I'm not ungrateful. I'm just exhausted. From the weight. From the memories. From my own brain dragging me down like deadweight. People say "it gets better," but when? How long am I supposed to hang on for a maybe?
It's like I'm screaming and no one hears me. Or worse...they hear me and just walk away.
I'm not lazy. I'm not ungrateful. I'm just exhausted. From the weight. From the memories. From my own brain dragging me down like deadweight. People say "it gets better," but when? How long am I supposed to hang on for a maybe?
