Venting vent 2

[greg ! :3]

i still remember my ex best friend telling me how ugly and fat i am. i still remember everything she said, and it hurts so much. im so tired of being excluded by my friends, i fucking hate everyone, i just want to die as soon as i can. just cant anymore, they keep treating me like shit. i am so exhausted of this. im not even a second choice. they only talk to me when theres nobody to talk. i just want a real friend. i lost every friend i had, and its all my fucking dfault. i wish i did commit last week, i wish i wanst a coward, i wish so many things but i cant achieve them. if i was a pretty and smart and cis boy i wouldnt be so mentally ill. i wish i wanst so retarded. i wish, i wish, i wish....... i cant. im sorry.