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Wizard
- Jun 20, 2023
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Defenestration
I want to have the courage to kill myself
- Oct 25, 2020
- 2,586
I cannot disclose such information, I am sorry.
Defenestration
I want to have the courage to kill myself
- Oct 25, 2020
- 2,586
Blank_
Member
- May 6, 2023
- 35
Has anyone heard from @istherehope ? She hasn't been online since October 7.Has anyone heard from @metfan647 ?
They may be totally fine. I know personally I've gone literally months without even coming on here, but I don't know how often they check and come on here and we were messaging back-and-forth and I'm just worried because it says they have not seen my message or been online since like Monday, but before that they were responding every day so I just wanna make sure they're OK.
JassieDusk
To exist is to stand within reach of suffering
- Oct 5, 2025
- 128
Does anyone know where @blueberrypanic went? I can't find her account. Did she ctb or just leave the site?
Emerita
the look of death
- Jan 16, 2025
- 309
Pretty sure her new username was @Jisatsu and she disabled her account before she had a failed attempt.
Ctb thread with Benzocaine/Cyanotic Fallout
This is a pre-made post for when I know I'll be gone. I plan to have this post on my birthday... the day I'm supposed to turn 27. I took benzocaine powder and oral anesthetic. I'm taking a significant amount way more then I'd actually recommend anyone ever take... but I'm exhausted from making...
sanctioned-suicide.net
I could be wrong though
yotaka
夜鷹
- Jan 29, 2026
- 185
Has anyone heard anything about @Rainork in the past few days? Their attempt on Saturday didn't work out, and last I heard they were in the hospital...
Rainork
What a load of baloney
- Mar 17, 2023
- 154
Still in Critical Care, have only started to come round the last few days. We hallucinating heavily for a while and honestly cant recall anything after taking the pills until the last few days.
darksouls
Illuminated
- May 10, 2025
- 3,827
Has anyone heard from @mrk´ and @OnceTheHappiestMan ?Last edited:
I asked about @mrk´ already, he asked for his account to be ban
not-2-b-the-answer
Archangel
- Mar 23, 2018
- 11,385
Hi everyone,
Some very sad news to pass along.
It's hard to even type.
Our friend Namelesa has passed on.
I can't even think of the right words to say.
My thoughts are with her family and friends at this time.
I don't even want to hit post reply...
SASU-KE
How I get up when I hear the alarm ↑
- Nov 26, 2025
- 1,121
She was the most active mod in this thread. It gave a lot of comfort to the people who were trying to know what happened to their friends and favorite posters. She worked very hard at life, as was evidenced by her blog.Hi everyone,
Some very sad news to pass along.
It's hard to even type.
Our friend Namelesa has passed on.
I can't even think of the right words to say.
My thoughts are with her family and friends at this time.
I don't even want to hit post reply...
May she rest in peace.
darksouls
Illuminated
- May 10, 2025
- 3,827
I am still in shock
and at a loss for words,
I hope she is in a better place now
TAW122
Emissary of the right to die.
- Aug 30, 2018
- 7,585
May Namelesa rest in peace.
TAW122
Emissary of the right to die.
- Aug 30, 2018
- 7,585
Anyone know what happened to @Murasa ? I used to interact with her, but she hasn't been active for a long time.
Lov3
Amor(Autistic)
- Dec 24, 2025
- 381
Does anyone know what happened to @MissAbyss
The last time I spoke to her was in February; she seemed to be doing well.
Lov3
Amor(Autistic)
- Dec 24, 2025
- 381
Namelesa...I wasn't expecting to read this, I hope it was quick and peaceful.Hi everyone,
Some very sad news to pass along.
It's hard to even type.
Our friend Namelesa has passed on.
I can't even think of the right words to say.
My thoughts are with her family and friends at this time.
I don't even want to hit post reply...
GhostInTheMachine
Safeguard
- Nov 5, 2023
- 530
Hi everyone,
Some very sad news to pass along.
It's hard to even type.
Our friend Namelesa has passed on.
I can't even think of the right words to say.
My thoughts are with her family and friends at this time.
I don't even want to hit post reply...
God dammit, I was always happy to see their posts and progress on what they were making. Legitimately, she was one of the brightest flames on this website and it's not going to be the same without her. I can only hope that she is truly at peace now, wherever that may be.
I know you'll never see this now Name, but you were one of the coolest people I met here and I'm going to miss you. Farewell, shooting star. We'll still be here to carry the weight.Anyone heard from @Gl1tch3d G1rl recently?
ForestGhost
PFP by user ropeburns&migranes
- Aug 25, 2024
- 271
Ugh this one is sad. I know she was going through something and resigned from being a mod (she had a message about it on her profile), but I wasn't expecting that. Rest in peace :cHi everyone,
Some very sad news to pass along.
It's hard to even type.
Our friend Namelesa has passed on.
I can't even think of the right words to say.
My thoughts are with her family and friends at this time.
I don't even want to hit post reply...
EmptyBottle
Precisely calculate 9**9**9 with perl bignum + GMP
- Apr 10, 2025
- 2,376
The last post from her was:
And I last sent a message to the user on Feb 3rd, getting a hug reaction and no further replies.
SASU-KE
How I get up when I hear the alarm ↑
- Nov 26, 2025
- 1,121
My friend @Emerita has passed away on March 31st.She let me know before attempting and asked me to make a post to let the people here know.She didn't have it in her at that point to even schedule a farewell thread. Life beat her down pretty hard and took lot more from her than it gave back.
Rest in peace,Em.
darksouls
Illuminated
- May 10, 2025
- 3,827
goodbye Emerita, I hope you have found peace
not-2-b-the-answer
Archangel
- Mar 23, 2018
- 11,385
gottacheckout
COB
- May 20, 2025
- 724
Last I talked with her was in early March. She said she was in a good space and wanted to take a break. She also received her method just a few days before that.Any news from @LoiteringClouds?
