Hi
@AntiquatedHorror,
@noname223,
I returned just yesterday. I am in a difficult situation and the loneliness has been unbearable. A little bit of space from the forum definitely did some good, but I deactivated my account too hastily, considering the fact I have no connections beyond this site.
Thank you Mods, f
or granting my request to return. I really appreciate that. @noname223 is correct that I am no longer a Mod here. I requested to step down and remain a regular member going forward (but I'm grateful for the opportunity to be a part of the staff team).
I appreciate you both bringing it up. I wasn't sure how to do so. I truthfully feel ashamed that I couldn't even keep away from SS for 20 days, because I'm that isolated and fear dying alone. I tried to make an attempt but I simply sat and stared at my SN for a long time, unable to break the seal on the packaging and take it.
I genuinely missed a lot of members here too, and kept wondering how many of you are. I already see some familiar names have been crossed out in the time I have been gone, and that makes my heart feel heavier.
It's doubtful that I will ever be as active here as I used to be. I am struggling too much physically and psychologically to frequently participate, but I value the option and the opportunity to check in on how others are doing. I'm still impacted by what happened with
@Snake of Eden. There are certain aspects of my life I can no longer share here because I do not feel safe to do so, but that's okay. Even more importantly, I am grieving the loss
of my dear friend, @Midgardsorm. I miss him so much.
Thank you both - and many more of you here - for being so kind to me and welcoming. I came back to 122 notifications. Many of them were kind words of support and really touching sentiments that made me cry like a baby. I've always felt unwanted and like a burden wherever I go, so what many of you have written genuinely means a lot to me. Thank you.