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[Zeus35]

Just feeling very weak and tired. No cravings to eat or drink anything. Some pains like a mild headache and pains and aches in my body. Nothing really severe or anything like that. Just very very tired and weak.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me, that does sound like a horrible way to ctb, and I know that I could never do it, but I wish you the best in whatever happens and I hope you find relief from your suffering.

 

[Zeus35]

To me, that does sound like a horrible way to ctb, and I know that I could never do it, but I wish you the best in whatever happens and I hope you find relief from your suffering.

Thank you. Yes it is horrible and it's not for the faint hearted. You have to have alot of willpower to do it. I have autism and when someone with autism wants to do something they usually will be very determined and do it. The only down sides are the pain and fact it's not a process that's overnight but takes up to two weeks. That's the only down side. I'm hoping to slip into a coma soon enough so I can escape in my final moments.

 

[Chiisai]

What day are you in now? You might want to keep a log on a single thread.

 

[Zeus35]

What day are you in now? You might want to keep a log on a single thread.

I can't remember anymore my memory is also going abit hay wire. I would keep a log but it's not really something I want to do as I die. It's because I don't want to spent my last however many days answering questions repeatedly. Once I stop commenting I think people will figure I've either slipped into a come and then died or just died.

 

[LifeQuitter2018]

I can't remember anymore my memory is also going abit hay wire. I would keep a log but it's not really something I want to do as I die. It's because I don't want to spent my last however many days answering questions repeatedly. Once I stop commenting I think people will figure I've either slipped into a come and then died or just died.

You live alone right ? Why don't you use SN ?
SN is perfect for people who live alone.

 

[DrownFeather]

I'm sorry that a pure and unjustified person like you had to do this, peace is waiting you

 

[Shu]

So you haven't ate or drank 1 thing?

 

[Foresight]

I wish you comfort. I hope it continues to be little discomfort.

 

[Zeus35]

You live alone right ? Why don't you use SN ?
SN is perfect for people who live alone.

When you live in England it is extremely difficult to get. They won't ship to private people and they also have the police knock on the door

When you live in England it is extremely difficult to get. They won't ship to private people and they also have the police knock on the door

Would love to do SN but don't have the means to.

So you haven't ate or drank 1 thing?

Well what do you think VSED means? There is your answer

I wish you comfort. I hope it continues to be little discomfort.

Wish I was dead

 

[Red Scare]

Does this mean you didn't put any effort into finding those kittens a home? It really wouldn't be that hard. Put a Craigslist ad or a flyer up that says free kittens to good home.

If you just abandon them they will go to an animal shelter.

 

[Why Me?]

Thank you. Yes it is horrible and it's not for the faint hearted. You have to have alot of willpower to do it. I have autism and when someone with autism wants to do something they usually will be very determined and do it. The only down sides are the pain and fact it's not a process that's overnight but takes up to two weeks. That's the only down side. I'm hoping to slip into a coma soon enough so I can escape in my final moments.

This method is naturally trying to consume me, and all I would have to do is let it happen. I actually have to fight against it everyday at this point. I easily go the entire day without eating or drinking, and it's hard for me to get out of bed, I don't know how long I can fight it. I recently got very sick with vertigo, ended up vomiting because of it. Yesterday, I saw images of people during a famine, they looked like skeletons, and it horrified me, because I don't want to end up like that.

 

[Judy Garland]

This method is naturally trying to consume me, and all I would have to do is let it happen. I actually have to fight against it everyday at this point. I easily go the entire day without eating or drinking, and it's hard for me to get out of bed, I don't know how long I can fight it. I recently got very sick with vertigo, ended up vomiting because of it. Yesterday, I saw images of people during a famine, they looked like skeletons, and it horrified me, because I don't want to end up like that.

In VSED you would die of dehydration before you looked like a skeleton. Don't worry.

 

[Shu]

Practice called Santhara.

 

[Zeus35]

In VSED you would die of dehydration before you looked like a skeleton. Don't worry.

You'd just look slightly pale and flushed. Judy Garland is correct. You definitely won't look like a skeleton until a while after your VSED.

You'd just look slightly pale and flushed. Judy Garland is correct. You definitely won't look like a skeleton until a while after your VSED.

You'll also likely experience some psychotic symptoms early on. Hallucinations, delusions, dissociation the list goes on.

 

[downndone2]

In VSED you would die of dehydration before you looked like a skeleton. Don't worry.

Yeah, with VSED it is the lack of hydration that really gets you. People who drink but dont eat, it takes a very long time
Usually with vsed, the ability to continue on without drinking doesnt seem to last too long, it is really difficult

 

[Judy Garland]

Yeah, with VSED it is the lack of hydration that really gets you. People who drink but dont eat, it takes a very long time
Usually with vsed, the ability to continue on without drinking doesnt seem to last too long, it is really difficult

I've heard mixed reports about this. A lot of people, including doctors/scientists say that after the first few days of discomfort, the body starts to release more endophins and it's actually a rather peaceful way to go. It just takes a long time. VSED is my last option if my SN doesn't work. And it would be in the woods, because if I go homeless again, that'll be it for me. I'm thinking of using my SN before I go homeless though.

 

[Zeus35]

Yeah, with VSED it is the lack of hydration that really gets you. People who drink but dont eat, it takes a very long time
Usually with vsed, the ability to continue on without drinking doesnt seem to last too long, it is really difficult

I've heard mixed reports about this. A lot of people, including doctors/scientists say that after the first few days of discomfort, the body starts to release more endophins and it's actually a rather peaceful way to go. It just takes a long time. VSED is my last option if my SN doesn't work. And it would be in the woods, because if I go homeless again, that'll be it for me. I'm thinking of using my SN before I go homeless though.

I agree. Personal experience it is the first few days. I'd say first two days. Then it is peaceful somewhat with some pain but definitely not agonising I'd say bearable pain.
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I agree. Personal experience it is the first few days. I'd say first two days. Then it is peaceful somewhat with some pain but definitely not agonising I'd say bearable pain.

I guess taking up to two weeks to die is long x