hello, its been quite a while since i last posted on this site, i feel like a lot has changed, but also like nothing has truly changed, and i feel like venting on this site, as i view it as a safe and quiet place.
since my last post, ive been diagnosed with bipolar and schizophrenia and ive been under 3 day a week visits from nurses and doctors, to in a way, keep up with me to prevent me from leaving this world.
i have however, grown very tired recently, the days have been blurring and merging into one seriously fucked up amalgamation of suffering. i keep hearing horrible things whispered to me, and it feels like my delusions grow stronger every single day.
i want to go, but i want it to be quiet, fast and preferably painless, im open to anything and was hoping for some advice. ive lived a lackluster life and simply want it all to stop so that i can finally hear silence and peace once and for all. thank you
since my last post, ive been diagnosed with bipolar and schizophrenia and ive been under 3 day a week visits from nurses and doctors, to in a way, keep up with me to prevent me from leaving this world.
i have however, grown very tired recently, the days have been blurring and merging into one seriously fucked up amalgamation of suffering. i keep hearing horrible things whispered to me, and it feels like my delusions grow stronger every single day.
i want to go, but i want it to be quiet, fast and preferably painless, im open to anything and was hoping for some advice. ive lived a lackluster life and simply want it all to stop so that i can finally hear silence and peace once and for all. thank you
