Venting update

[ISO.Tranquility]

hello, its been quite a while since i last posted on this site, i feel like a lot has changed, but also like nothing has truly changed, and i feel like venting on this site, as i view it as a safe and quiet place.
since my last post, ive been diagnosed with bipolar and schizophrenia and ive been under 3 day a week visits from nurses and doctors, to in a way, keep up with me to prevent me from leaving this world.
i have however, grown very tired recently, the days have been blurring and merging into one seriously fucked up amalgamation of suffering. i keep hearing horrible things whispered to me, and it feels like my delusions grow stronger every single day.
i want to go, but i want it to be quiet, fast and preferably painless, im open to anything and was hoping for some advice. ive lived a lackluster life and simply want it all to stop so that i can finally hear silence and peace once and for all. thank you

 

[Nikitatos]

schizophrenia is tough. Sorry that you're going through that. Do the meds help at all?

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you eventually find the peace from all the suffering you search for, to me it truly is so terrible and cruel how people suffer so unbearably in this existence, I wish you all the best.