Venting update to my vent thread

[iheartreb]

so we met and had a great time i haven't thought about CTB at all and actually felt happy. i brought up our problems and apologized for everything i said and done to hurt them but they didn't rlly try to keep the conversation going so i decided not to bring it up again. i still feel like they deserve someone better than me especially since i have severe social anxiety and made things difficult for them when we went out. i really think this issue is not only draining me but also everyone around me which i'm so incredibly sorry for. days like these rlly make me question if i actually want to CTB or not i felt genuine happiness but i also ruined certain situations and upset them.