Update: out of Hospital

[rem2024]

I tried to commit suicide and aborted after deciding to live June 15th and not going through with Co and tent method at state park. I spent all day Thursday/Friday in the hospital and was released later that evening. I since have been given medicine for PTSD, Borderline Personality Disorder, Autism, and Adult forced Sexual Exploitation, Physical abuse all confirmed.

I went to metro care service today, spent entire day there going through a case worker, and then psychiatry appoint. Had my pastor from church come with me, spent entire day with me as well and thankful to have a friend come along. Although I may be on the verge of homelessness and losing everything I have, it was nice to seek help, and not keep the suicidal idealization to my self anymore.

I don't post as much right now, but trying to exercise and get my weight back down, play some video games while I still can, look for jobs, though nothing seems to come my way. And try from there. But not giving up, and not letting these people win. I can't watch anime, and not have my own story arc to complete! I have to make it to that 200th epsidoe while the rest might be filler, i want to find my main story line.

 

[sugarh1gh]

I am glad you have people near you trying to give you hand. I hope everything works out okay for you. I am happy to see you optimistic.

 

[thealteredmind]

excellent. so there's still soul in you. post also in the recovery forum! good luck

 

[smvrtsa]

you started the anime, so now you gotta stick it out and see how it ends! can't leave it on a cliffhanger!

 

[Raindancer]

That is wonderful and I am glad you have some support. That can make a world of difference!

 

[nightlygem]

We are so proud of your decision and will support you moving forward. Your bravery is inspiring, seeking help is not easy at all. No matter the hardships, I truly hope that you are able to find at least the slightest bit of hope in this world.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Good luck! I'm glad you're recovering!

 

[Tesha]

That's one hell of a brave decision you've made. I wish you all the best with your future choices.

 

[SelfKill]

I am happy that you are recovering! You got this!

 

[лост ин спасэ]

Very happy to see you still have hope.
Best of luck to you on your path to happiness

 

[okuhvtuji]

I tried to commit suicide and aborted after deciding to live June 15th and not going through with Co and tent method at state park. I spent all day Thursday/Friday in the hospital and was released later that evening. I since have been given medicine for PTSD, Borderline Personality Disorder, Autism, and Adult forced Sexual Exploitation, Physical abuse all confirmed.

I went to metro care service today, spent entire day there going through a case worker, and then psychiatry appoint. Had my pastor from church come with me, spent entire day with me as well and thankful to have a friend come along. Although I may be on the verge of homelessness and losing everything I have, it was nice to seek help, and not keep the suicidal idealization to my self anymore.

I don't post as much right now, but trying to exercise and get my weight back down, play some video games while I still can, look for jobs, though nothing seems to come my way. And try from there. But not giving up, and not letting these people win. I can't watch anime, and not have my own story arc to complete! I have to make it to that 200th epsidoe while the rest might be filler, i want to find my main story line.

Ask your pastor if he can help you find a job. Lots of people go to church, he might know someone