Venting UPDATE: Chronicles of being a disabled married woman

[hopelessghost]

A lot of you have been really kind on my other posts and with the help of this community, my family and a very close friend I was able to ask for a "divorce". Since we're not married on paper it will be easier.
I'm still suicidal, very lonely and feeling awfull overall, but I'm feeling a little more hopeful now that I know I didn't deserve to be treated that way
It's hard because I keep thinking it's because of me, of my chronic illness and of how depressed I am, that he didn't love me anymore and didn't treat me with respect but still I'm kind of hopeful for the future.
Apparently ctb is not a real plan anymore and just a desire I choose everyday to be away from, like an addiction. Thanks to every single person who cared enough to tell me sweet words and give support and courage through this.

 

[Always-in-trouble]

A lot of you have been really kind on my other posts and with the help of this community, my family and a very close friend I was able to ask for a "divorce". Since we're not married on paper it will be easier.
I'm still suicidal, very lonely and feeling awfull overall, but I'm feeling a little more hopeful now that I know I didn't deserve to be treated that way
It's hard because I keep thinking it's because of me, of my chronic illness and of how depressed I am, that he didn't love me anymore and didn't treat me with respect but still I'm kind of hopeful for the future.
Apparently ctb is not a real plan anymore and just a desire I choose everyday to be away from, like an addiction. Thanks to every single person who cared enough to tell me sweet words and give support and courage through this.

Will you just live with them instead of your soon-to-be ex? Hopefully that won't be abusive.