Discussion Unusual coping mechanisms..

[Pon]

Hey all.

Over the last year, I have found a pattern within myself that I have repeated a handful of times every couple of months...
Though I typically believe I have come to terms with the state of the world and myself, I of course have my moments of vulnerability still..
During these intense moments of dread and worriment, I typically turn my attention to my trusty headphonesー Oh, how I love drowning out everything with my favourite tunes, and walking around my house, imagining I hold the lead role to a musical or a show where I can surpass my obstacles comfortably and everything is how I want it!
But this is not what made me curious as of late. It's that I find myself on my round, gray carpet of my kitchen, cross-legged and usually with a few tears on my face. I hold a small porcelain bowl and one of my many lighters from my collection. Then, having written all my intrusive and darkest thoughts on a piece of paper, I put it inside the bowl and set it ablaze, staring blankly at it.

There is something therapeutic for me in watching a representation, a manifestation of all that bothers me go up in flames, leaving only charred remains and ashes behind... The times I have done this, I have gotten so engrossed in the warmth of that dancing flame that I find myself zoning out and forgetting all the dissatisfactory struggles of daily life.

I would love to hear from you, your own unconventional (or otherwise) means of coping or venting when you are at your lowest.

It's some artform, a poetic self-expression, this subject.​

 

[DivineSpark]

Unusual yes. Mine is pretty common, comfort eating. Anxiety, anhedonia and other shitty feelings makes me want to eat.

 

[rottenandabused]

I age regress. Maybe it is common, just not enough exposed because people think its creepy, a kink, or always harmful.

It's soothing going back to simpler times, and I believe it would be so relaxing if I had a partner that would take the role of caregiver for those moments of regression

 

[onthefence]

Hey all.

Over the last year, I have found a pattern within myself that I have repeated a handful of times every couple of months...
Though I typically believe I have come to terms with the state of the world and myself, I of course have my moments of vulnerability still..
During these intense moments of dread and worriment, I typically turn my attention to my trusty headphonesー Oh, how I love drowning out everything with my favourite tunes, and walking around my house, imagining I hold the lead role to a musical or a show where I can surpass my obstacles comfortably and everything is how I want it!
But this is not what made me curious as of late. It's that I find myself on my round, gray carpet of my kitchen, cross-legged and usually with a few tears on my face. I hold a small porcelain bowl and one of my many lighters from my collection. Then, having written all my intrusive and darkest thoughts on a piece of paper, I put it inside the bowl and set it ablaze, staring blankly at it.

There is something therapeutic for me in watching a representation, a manifestation of all that bothers me go up in flames, leaving only charred remains and ashes behind... The times I have done this, I have gotten so engrossed in the warmth of that dancing flame that I find myself zoning out and forgetting all the dissatisfactory struggles of daily life.

I would love to hear from you, your own unconventional (or otherwise) means of coping or venting when you are at your lowest.

It's some artform, a poetic self-expression, this subject.​

I really like this. All of mine are self destructive/ not healthy. Lately it has been purposefully dissociating for hours at a time so much that I just stare at the wall. Someday I might not "come back." But it feels so relieving to be gone.