Unmotivated or Lazy?

[TRIXI3]

So, I'm genuinely wondering … is my lack of activity, dread of going to work or actually accomplishing anything, procrastinating, canceling plans, etc. because of pure exhaustion and no motivation, or am I genuinely just a lazy person??? I have thought about this at work for the past several days simply because I don't even want to be there. I would hate to say I'm lazy, but I don't even want to get out of bed in the morning, I don't feel like seeing the same people everyday that always act so happy (or not so much, I really hate those people) for absolutely no reason as they're doing the same exact thing they do EVERY OTHER DAY, everytime something happens and it requires me to even do anything I just don't want to and move so slowly and even contemplate doing it in the first place, sometimes I'll even intentionally wait for someone else to do it for me and act like I wasn't aware it needed to be done… I'm just so tired and honestly I don't know if it's a lazy tired or a sick of everything tired.

Yes, I am genuinely sick and tired of having to live the same day over and over again and it feel as if I'm accomplishing nothing with my life.

Yes, I would say that I am a very depressed person who sees no point in my life and no worth on myself…

and finally -
Yes, I do wish I could stop crying, put on a smile, and genuinely want to face the world with a positive attitude

But today won't be that day, and I don't think tomorrow will be neither.

 

[day]

Baby steps, even if that sounds stupid. When you hit the bottom it's nothing but up.

You're not lazy, depression eats at everyone and it can make you incredibly lethargic and unable to perform basic human tasks like showering, eating, or anything that you regularly are able to do.

You're not alone in these types of feeling OP. I'm so sorry the cruel world has put you in this position. You don't deserve to suffer. I hope you can find any motivation. Best wishes, hope you find peace soon as well.

 

[TRIXI3]

Baby steps, even if that sounds stupid. When you hit the bottom it's nothing but up.

You're not lazy, depression eats at everyone and it can make you incredibly lethargic and unable to perform basic human tasks like showering, eating, or anything that you regularly are able to do.

You're not alone in these types of feeling OP. I'm so sorry the cruel world has put you in this position. You don't deserve to suffer. I hope you can find any motivation. Best wishes, hope you find peace soon as well.

Thank you I appreciate your kindness and your words of hope. I truly want things to get better however I'm able to achieve that. I hope the best for you as well, sending you love and peace my friend!

 

[Forever Sleep]

I ask myself the same question a lot. I do try to work hard at work but my motivation is so low now. I'm so lazy at home. I do the absolute bare minimum. I live alone though- so- it only effects me. I still wonder though. Is this depression now? Or- will it just get worse and worse- the less I force myself to do? I find it really hard to get out of bed unless I have to. That's what it comes down to though I suppose. When I don't feel I HAVE to do stuff- I don't do it.

The obligation I used to feel to do all these things has gone. Because ultimately- what's the point? When you want to kill yourself- there isn't really much to work towards. I realise it must look lazy to other people. Especially people like my Dad who is always working on the house and garden. I don't know if I even care about that anymore though. I do feel the need to support myself financially though- so- that drives me to do stuff. I'm just exhausted though- and so resentful that I have all this shit to deal with.

Sorry- I doubt I comforted you very much! I feel in the same position really.

 

[ChronicPain23]

Depression can cause this to happen to you. I have anxiety about work, but I also feel the meaninglessness of life, caused by depression. I would rather die than continue to vegetate, one goes to work for money, to me this money will not give me anything. I won't get back the lost teenage years, no woman will love me because of money, everything so meaningless.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just because someone feels so tired of everything doesn't automatically mean that they are lazy, I feel like the word lazy is often used to invalidate and dismiss people's suffering, I think that feeling so tired of everything is a perfectly valid way to feel.