[UK] SN from IC got busted - just had a police visit about SN

[PurpleParadigm]

Hi folks,

A while ago I have made a thread tracking my progress getting SN from IC in the UK. Before my shipment would arrive, and before my CTB date I have went abroad to visit my family potentially one last time and do some intraspection, truly thing about what I wanted to do.

[UK based] Got SN source, will order today*, tracking progress in this thread

Hello, Thanks to the kind and helpful users of this forum I have received the source for SN from IC. I am based in the UK. For scientific purposes I will be tracking my progress getting it in this thread. I will place my order today* Once the order is in place I will update you in this thread...

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Anyway, the shipment arrived according to tracking, but sooner than expected when I was still abroad. I could not locate the package so maybe it was sent back or stolen (I had packages go missing before). Because of my fucking ADHD brain and anxiety of basically losing my way out in a really silly way the thread became one of many projects I started but never taken to completion. I offer everyone my deepest apologies.

BUT! I have updates. Today, out of the blue, Police showed up at my door. It was very sudden and scary initially, though the officers ultimately were trying to help but the whole process needs work, specifically around how intimidating and sudden it was at the start. The two guys were actually quite nice when we sat down to talk. Rambling aside, here are the details I managed to gather:

* IC got busted by Canadian Police, the officers said the site was taken down. They got a list of everyone who ordered from Interpol
* They did not search my flat, it was a welfare check as part of suicide prevention initiative. So I guess if you have SN on hand they will not search for it
* After they were reassured that I am alone, noone is activelly attempting to CTB, and perhaps also that I am not involved in distributing the substance, they were rather nice albeit the whole procedure needs work
* I ordered to my home address so that's how they knew where to find me
* This is fundamentally a welfare check and unless you are caught in the act they cannot put you into psych ward
* They will sit down and listen, leaving behind a note with mental health resources
* I don't know if you can refuse them entry. I thought something nasty happened in the area as there were many Police vehicles zooming about
* I didn't CTB last weekend because I couldn't find my SN and don't have alternatives. If I go perm on current job it comes with life insurance of 8x salary so I'll try to make that happen first
* I don't know if I'm under surveillance but this post is a good way to check?
* They do have (at least in my area) mental health nurses on stand by for mental health related emergencies. Actually, that's nice, at least in principle

That's it. I'm feeling conflicted. Scared, kinda impressed they had sat down to listen (it's something) and also very curious about how all of this works because I work in a sort of adjacent industry.

Also need a hug. Like, I'm sitting here trying to process this but I can't exactly tell to anyone close to me lol. Withdrew from friends - they don't know anyway, family and partner don't know.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's so horrible what has happened, suicidal people don't deserve this but anyway I wish you the best.

 

[PurpleParadigm]

It's so horrible what has happened, suicidal people don't deserve this but anyway I wish you the best.

It was an experience. I need time to process what to think about this. Much work is needed to improve how we navigate around mental health, let alone suicide.

The ironic thing coming to SaSu wasn't on my agenda today. I was too embarassed for abandoning my other thread albeit unintentionally and after spending time with family / living through last week was actually feeling on the up. I started to be very attentive to my sleep, which dampened the ADHD symptoms allowing me to actually function decently. Anyway I'm here now, drank lots of coffee too, probably won't sleep tonight again lol.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

I'm glad you're okay.

 

[Papilio_polyxenes]

From what I understand, laws in EU countries give police VERY broad latitude to involuntarily commit people and seize the SN. It's not yet illegal here in America to possess, and you can't get committed unless you attempt.

As a neurodivergent person of color, I don't look forward to having law enforcement at my door. Hope I receive my welfare check while I'm home alone, not while my father is here. If asked, I'm saying I already used all of it for one of my niche hobbies.

Police ought to spend these resources looking into terrorists, mass shooters, and sex traffickers. Not people who want to "exit" their unhappy lives peacefully. If you want to "help" vulnerable people, then send counselors - not cops to ransack our houses and make neighbors think we are drug kingpins.

While I have mixed feelings about KL's carelessness with our info and profiting from CTB, no member of Sackler family has served time in jail for the opioid crisis. Why not jail Big Pharma execs over a guy from Canada selling meat preservative? Guns are way more effective for CTB, but those are still broadly accessible. Makes zero sense.