Venting uhm

[bnkshawty]

When I fall in love, I instinctively alter who I am to match him better and will stop at nothing to make him want me at least half as much as I do. id let him hurt me as much as he wanted and it started to feel like love then i lose my sense of self completely along w him my only will 2 live

 

[HollowCreek]

Girl, this is wild and not in a cool, cute or good way. I think you've got that, kinda hoping you're just really young or something and that this is a phase or a bit. If this is 'love' to you, you've got to check yourself. Pick up a book about healthy attachment and the effects of negatives ones. This isn't even like...tumblr-esque edge posting, which is what it seems like you're trying to be like. Really, get help, look in the mirror for your own sake. Stay away from guys if this is the case. I can give you a 'wow thats so sad!' but thats just called reinforcement of negative behaviors

 

[bnkshawty]

Girl, this is wild and not in a cool, cute or good way. I think you've got that, kinda hoping you're just really young or something and that this is a phase or a bit. If this is 'love' to you, you've got to check yourself. Pick up a book about healthy attachment and the effects of negatives ones. This isn't even like...tumblr-esque edge posting, which is what it seems like you're trying to be like. Really, get help, look in the mirror for your own sake. Stay away from guys if this is the case. I can give you a 'wow thats so sad!' but thats just called reinforcement of negative behaviors

i never said it was cool or quirky at all and im 18 so i guess im young its js something im trying2 grow out of i dont even catch myself changing like that till after i get hurt

 

[HollowCreek]

i never said it was cool or quirky at all and im 18 so i guess im young its js something im trying2 grow out of i dont even catch myself changing like that till after i get hurt

Then it's good you've noticed a pattern. Previous post still stands. Research attachment types and how to grow away from certain subconsious behaviors. Mentioning it to a therapist would be ideal.

 

[bnkshawty]

Then it's good you've noticed a pattern. Previous post still stands. Research attachment types and how to grow away from certain subconsious behaviors. Mentioning it to a therapist would be ideal

i have a therapist but i was sent back2 my home country for a while by my parents and i cant be in contact w her cz im outside the country im all alone surrounded by ppl who dont even try2 understand me

 

[HollowCreek]

i have a therapist but i was sent back2 my home country for a while by my parents and i cant be in contact w her cz im outside the country im all alone surrounded by ppl who dont even try2 understand me

I'm sorry, that sucks. I'd stay away from dating for a while tho.