NSFW TW BLOOD | aftermath of my failed suibath

[kkiwii]

i tried to kill myself about two weeks ago, ive lost count how many times ive tried but ive been attempting since i was 12 yrs old in 6th grade and ive always either failed or woke up in a hospital. i tried a different method one, ive never tried (surprisingly cus ive been a cutter since i was in 3rd grd lol), but after my boss told me over call that there is no place in this world for burdens like me i spiraled. i cut up my entire body, my neck, breasts, all up and down my entire arms and wrists, my stomach and sides, my thighs, and front and back on my calves. i attempted to cut into my arteries on my right arm (ambidextrous) but it was like impossibleee. my body scars are fully healed now but my arm is pretty messed up cus i got it the deepest ive ever done. honestly failing my attempts is really weighing down on me and i feel like even more of a failure than i already am. i cant wait til im able to buy a gun it will make things a LOT easier lolz.

Spoiler: TW Blood

 

[HollowCreek]

Hey, don't feel bad about failing. Cutting should be considered a non-method. It's a movie thing, not a real ctb plan. I think the success rate for cutters is like, less than 10%? I wouldn't attempt that again. (Writing on the wall is a wild way to go btw)

 

[kkiwii]

Hey, don't feel bad about failing. Cutting should be considered a non-method. It's a movie thing, not a real ctb plan. I think the success rate for cutters is like, less than 10%? I wouldn't attempt that again. (Writing on the wall is a wild way to go btw)

yea lowk i thought id b able to do bc ive been cutting for so long id b able to handle it but i dont think i even got it half way there. i stayed in a hospital fir a week and my brother ended up getting admitted to the same one i was in cus he tried to hang himself a few days later. he got out two days ago but was sent back yesterday for doing it again

 

[Cauliflour]

Hey, don't feel bad about failing. Cutting should be considered a non-method. It's a movie thing, not a real ctb plan. I think the success rate for cutters is like, less than 10%? I wouldn't attempt that again. (Writing on the wall is a wild way to go btw)

I'm curious, does stabbing yourself in the torso have a similar success rate or is it higher/lower? I suspect it's the human body's natural defenses that prevent one from reaching the big arteries but does that have the same effect on stabbing?

 

[HollowCreek]

I'm curious, does stabbing yourself in the torso have a similar success rate or is it higher/lower? I suspect it's the human body's natural defenses that prevent one from reaching the big arteries but does that have the same effect on stabbing?

Babe, there is no knife method that works like that. Unfourtunately. Wished there was, it would be so acessable. Definately lower. If you look at homicide reports, stabbing victims typically have 45+ wounds bc that's how much it takes. You'd go into shock after only a few stabs, if not one.

 

[timmy_o]

I agree with above. You shouldn't feel like a failure after that, but I totally understand why.
I went what I thought was pretty deep into my arm right above the radial artery and it didn't even touch it. Just a big wound.

 

[bnkshawty]

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i tried to kill myself about two weeks ago, ive lost count how many times ive tried but ive been attempting since i was 12 yrs old in 6th grade and ive always either failed or woke up in a hospital. i tried a different method one, ive never tried (surprisingly cus ive been a cutter since i was in 3rd grd lol), but after my boss told me over call that there is no place in this world for burdens like me i spiraled. i cut up my entire body, my neck, breasts, all up and down my entire arms and wrists, my stomach and sides, my thighs, and front and back on my calves. i attempted to cut into my arteries on my right arm (ambidextrous) but it was like impossibleee. my body scars are fully healed now but my arm is pretty messed up cus i got it the deepest ive ever done. honestly failing my attempts is really weighing down on me and i feel like even more of a failure than i already am. i cant wait til im able to buy a gun it will make things a LOT easier lolz.

Spoiler: TW Blood

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i used2 do tis2 for some reason i wonder what the psycology is behind writing w ur blood

 

[Crematoryy]

You don't deserve to go through this. I would like to be by your side taking care of you, and giving you hugs with a gentle sense.

I also hate myself and feel like I will never accept myself without external love.

 

[Cauliflour]

Babe, there is no knife method that works like that. Unfourtunately. Wished there was, it would be so acessable. Definately lower. If you look at homicide reports, stabbing victims typically have 45+ wounds bc that's how much it takes. You'd go into shock after only a few stabs, if not one.

Weirdly enough, reading though these posts has made me less paranoid about accidentally killing myself now that I know that mother nature is a bitch. When I see posts online about the lethality of these things, I either come across "yeah 1 stab and it's all over" or well, this. I guess it depends on where you hit. I know the throat/neck is easier to cause serious damage but idk I'm not a doctor.

 

[AnonymousL]

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i used2 do tis2 for some reason i wonder what the psycology is behind writing w ur blood

Curious as well! When I was 15 I wrote with my blood on a paper. Or made a broken heart with it? Then with a marker wrote all kinds of depressed shit. Behind it.

I used to draw very dark things back then but it was the first and only time I actually used my blood for it. Still don't know why or what went on in my mind

 

[bnkshawty]

Curious as well! When I was 15 I wrote with my blood on a paper. Or made a broken heart with it? Then with a marker wrote all kinds of depressed shit. Behind it.

I used to draw very dark things back then but it was the first and only time I actually used my blood for it. Still don't know why or what went on in my mind

when i was 16-17 i was id draw w my blood on the wall writing cray shi idk why i was rlly medicated during that time

 

[kkiwii]

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i used2 do tis2 for some reason i wonder what the psycology is behind writing w ur blood

i have a habit of writing my true feelings with my blood on my walls after sh, in the moment i truly felt sorry because i thought my family was gonna loose me and i wanted them to know i was doing it for me

You don't deserve to go through this. I would like to be by your side taking care of you, and giving you hugs with a gentle sense.

I also hate myself and feel like I will never accept myself without external love.

sending my love ur way thank u ur so sweet

 

[iloveloving]

I can relate. My entire legs are cut up. I'm sorry.

Bless your heart.

 

[wham311]

Hey, don't feel bad about failing. Cutting should be considered a non-method. It's a movie thing, not a real ctb plan. I think the success rate for cutters is like, less than 10%? I wouldn't attempt that again. (Writing on the wall is a wild way to go btw)

All the reported numbers are way higher than they are in reality bc failures go unreported

 

[leandra]

Cutting is a non-method