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Okokaykay

Okokaykay

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May 10, 2023
90
Tw for sh mention//

It's literally just turned midnight but I've kind of convinced myself that, because it's my birthday, I could hurt myself. Writing that out is crazy and I feel insane, but maybe people around me will be less disappointed with me if I do it today, of all days? I just can't stop thinking about it.

Is there even a way to hide self harm from a partner? It's ridiculous to even ask. I keep scrambling and picking apart my brain in hopes that there's some way for me to go through with these urges without hurting those around me. I've been thinking of it all day.
I'm pathetic. I really didn't want to make it to 20. I went into this year certain I'd be gone by now- I wish I was entirely alone, so I could be left to self destruct without the guilt. It's so so selfish.
I have to live, but I really dont know how to. I tell people I'm recovering, but I absolutely don't want to. I'm so fucking sick of myself and this stupid impulsive urge.
 
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jarik

jarik

Student
Jun 12, 2024
161
Happy birthdey.
 
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Unknown21

Unknown21

?/?/2024
Apr 25, 2023
872
Happy birthday 🎂
 
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sugarh1gh

sugarh1gh

Death is new departure and beggining of a journey.
May 27, 2024
329
Happy birthday!

I don't know the method of how you SH, but if you are worried about scars, you could use make ups to cover it.
 
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Catch-22

Catch-22

But in the end it doesn't even matter...😢
Aug 19, 2019
205
Happy Birthday! I think we need to come up with a new term to acknowledge someone's birthday without saying happy. But I wish it was a happy birthday for you
 
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Roadrunner

Roadrunner

Member
Mar 18, 2024
99
Birthday greetings
 
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Worndown

Worndown

Visionary
Mar 21, 2019
2,639
Happy (?) Birthday. I hope it was not too depressing.
It is difficult to leave this life. That you survived an additional year is testimony to that fact.
Best wishes to you!
 
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HeartSayako

HeartSayako

Jvnko
Oct 17, 2023
14
Tw for sh mention//

It's literally just turned midnight but I've kind of convinced myself that, because it's my birthday, I could hurt myself. Writing that out is crazy and I feel insane, but maybe people around me will be less disappointed with me if I do it today, of all days? I just can't stop thinking about it.

Is there even a way to hide self harm from a partner? It's ridiculous to even ask. I keep scrambling and picking apart my brain in hopes that there's some way for me to go through with these urges without hurting those around me. I've been thinking of it all day.
I'm pathetic. I really didn't want to make it to 20. I went into this year certain I'd be gone by now- I wish I was entirely alone, so I could be left to self destruct without the guilt. It's so so selfish.
I have to live, but I really dont know how to. I tell people I'm recovering, but I absolutely don't want to. I'm so fucking sick of myself and this stupid impulsive urge.
Happy Birthday to you. I'm turning 23 today on the same day XD
 
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QueerMelancholy

QueerMelancholy

Arcanist
Jul 29, 2023
492
Happy Birthday Love GIF by yvoscholz
 
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rozeske

Maybe I am the problem
Dec 2, 2023
3,264
Happy birthday ❤️
 
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abchia

abchia

Student
Aug 28, 2023
123
Happy belated birthday. I understand how you feel, my birthday was last month and i harmed a few hours into it. Please know that the urges and those actions towards yourself don't define you, it is okay to have urges, and that you are important to those around you
 
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deleted442

deleted442

Getting closer
Jun 7, 2023
92
Best wishes for your birthday. I'm sorry you feel this way. I do too. I've never understood the word happy. I have tried but it just doesn't compute.
 
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Solaris7

Solaris7

New Member
May 14, 2024
2
Happy birthday!
 
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Okokaykay

Okokaykay

Member
May 10, 2023
90
Happy Birthday to you. I'm turning 23 today on the same day XD
omg! happy birthday!!
Happy belated birthday. I understand how you feel, my birthday was last month and i harmed a few hours into it. Please know that the urges and those actions towards yourself don't define you, it is okay to have urges, and that you are important to those around you
haha its still my bday! but it's relieving to know im not the only one- birthdays have always been so tough. i hope youre doing okay now
 
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Nothing87

Nothing87

Goodbye for now
Jun 5, 2024
60
greetings to your birthday! 🎂♥️
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
10,026
🎂HAPPY BIRTHDAY🎂
 
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Onelegman

Onelegman

I use a translator
May 24, 2024
553
Happy Birthday!!! 🍰
 
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