Trying to go back to my old self

[Gloomislost]

I guess I've become such a downer to all my friends and its upsetting them. I'm gonna try to be my "upbeat, always happy" self again for them because I know it probably irritates them a lot with how I am now.
I'll do anything I can, just so they're happy and feel like nothing as changed, but I can also feel myself wanting to ctb more than ever.

 

[アホペンギン]

I also experience this but I don’t care about trying to make myself look happy for them. And besides, its just online friends so it would be hard for them to tell but I guess the way I write made them avoid me because I’m too depressing and whatnot.

 

[Gloomislost]

I also experience this but I don’t care about trying to make myself look happy for them. And besides, its just online friends so it would be hard for them to tell but I guess the way I write made them avoid me because I’m too depressing and whatnot.

I just don't want them to hate me because I'm sad, so I just won't be sad around them.

 

[Jealous Blackheart]

What made you sad in the first place?

 

[Gloomislost]

What made you sad in the first place?

I don't really know because it's a cluster of multiple things that make me overall miserable and depressed.

 

[Enemargarita187]

I also experience this but I don’t care about trying to make myself look happy for them. And besides, its just online friends so it would be hard for them to tell but I guess the way I write made them avoid me because I’m too depressing and whatnot.

I'd like to be your friend. I like the way you write. Can we be friends?

 

[Gloomislost]

I'd like to be your friend. I like the way you write. Can we be friends?

Sure!! I would like that.

 

[Enemargarita187]

Sure!! I would like that.

Thank you! I'm glad you'd like to be my friend. What are your interests? Mine are horror movies and games, many kinds of hardcore and instrumental music, and cat videos.

 

[woh6]

I'm sorry to hear you're feeling like that. I've found that keeping up an act of fake happiness ends up being exhausting though :/

 

[Jealous Blackheart]

I don't really know because it's a cluster of multiple things that make me overall miserable and depressed.

I get that more than you know. 🖤