burninghill
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- Dec 2, 2025
- 372
I was using DPH (sleeping medication) weekly at the beginning of this year and I cut myself off from using it, especially because I didn't want to be perceived as a addict to my boyfriend haha, especially because he has lost 2 members of his immediate family to addiction.
I'm also trying not to buy more nicotine pouches. I want them bad but they're expensive and honestly I can't really afford to sustain it.
I'm just so bored and I feel miserable. I enjoy DPH so fucking much. It's my favourite thing in the world but I really don't want to use it again. It causes me a lot of anxiety, not because of the trip itself but the thought of having to go to hospital because I took too much or something.
I just feel miserable. It's the only word for it. I've been ordering monster and noodles and coffee to my house so I don't have to leave. I need something to do with myself. I want to occupy myself but I also don't really, you know?
I'm also trying not to buy more nicotine pouches. I want them bad but they're expensive and honestly I can't really afford to sustain it.
I'm just so bored and I feel miserable. I enjoy DPH so fucking much. It's my favourite thing in the world but I really don't want to use it again. It causes me a lot of anxiety, not because of the trip itself but the thought of having to go to hospital because I took too much or something.
I just feel miserable. It's the only word for it. I've been ordering monster and noodles and coffee to my house so I don't have to leave. I need something to do with myself. I want to occupy myself but I also don't really, you know?
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