Triggered constantly and can't say shit.

[Alwaysbadtime]

Literally everything triggers me. I hate everything. I am bombared by someone also unemployed who constantly talks. Everything they say...Everything they talk about bothers me. I really hate when they talk about their safe/rich mom and safe/rich brother. The same brother who would beat the shit out of him growing up. I was with them bf/gf in hs and so the constant talk about shit is fucking awful. I hated high school and they had some fun. It's just fucked.

I just say 'yeah and ugh huh and lately 'that's funny'

I fucking hate my family for on top of my shitty situation judging me for being mental. I should have never sided with that idea. My anxiety is situational. Psychs will completely make shit up and fuck with you...they do not care at all.

It's really bad. I don't know if this is in the right section. I don't fucking care about tolerating this fuckng mental fucking warfare on my psyche every fucking day. Anyone looking in would be like 'holyshit!!!!!!" If I were to say 'Shut the FUCK UP' he would call the fucking cops and tell me to pack up my handful of shit and go.

I have a way to go. I just have to figure shit out on when to fucking cut and run.

 

[Mr2005]

I showed one of your posts to my significant other because it sums up how I feel better than I can and she said "why doesn't she just leave him?"

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

I showed one of your posts to my significant other because it sums up how I feel better than I can and she said "why doesn't she just leave him?"

If you showed it to your significant other because it sums up how you feel doesn't that mean like you should leave them? I'm flattered and confused. Do you reside with a non-stop delusional talker?

I can't ever leave. I have no earned income. I hate/can't handle being alone. I have no household furnishings.

Please share/vent if you want to. It'd be nice to hear about other total shit going down.

 

[Mr2005]

If you showed it to your significant other because it sums up how you feel doesn't that mean like you should leave them? I'm flattered and confused. Do you reside with a non-stop delusional talker?

I can't ever leave. I have no earned income. I hate/can't handle being alone. I have no household furnishings.

Please share/vent if you want to. It'd be nice to hear about other total shit going down.

Oh I will when the times right but I like to stay calm if I can. I definitely saw some of myself in you and your situation. Yes I probably should leave. I can't stand it. I need to be alone but at the same time need her because I can't look after myself. It's infuriating. I feel for her until she's an arsehole

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

Oh I will when the times right but I like to stay calm if I can. I definitely saw some of myself in you and your situation. Yes I probably should leave. I can't stand it. I need to be alone but at the same time need her because I can't look after myself. It's infuriating. I feel for her until she's an arsehole

I hear you. It's kind of good that you could share a post and sorta advocate for yourself to her. Being alone or staying and it being toxic is shitty.

I just looked on your shit and saw you wrote: 'Claire is that you?' on 'I hate my bf' post. My saga must sound like Claire's.

It's bad. Thanks for the reply. Any stimulation...or interaction positive is nice.

 

[Gaybonez]

If you showed it to your significant other because it sums up how you feel doesn't that mean like you should leave them? I'm flattered and confused. Do you reside with a non-stop delusional talker?

I can't ever leave. I have no earned income. I hate/can't handle being alone. I have no household furnishings.

Please share/vent if you want to. It'd be nice to hear about other total shit going down.

Are you borderline ?

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

Are you borderline ?

No. As I said...just anxiety due to reality. And.....ignore.

 

[mossyfox]

I left with no earned income and no furnishings. I already met someone online through a dating website who I vetted and made sure was ready for longterm commitment and to help me take care of my kids cuz I can't manage well on my own. I was also in the middle of doing a master's degree. It worked out. You can leave if you want to and do what you gotta do to make the money work.

 

[motel rooms]

I left with no earned income and no furnishings. I already met someone online through a dating website who I vetted and made sure was ready for longterm commitment and to help me take care of my kids cuz I can't manage well on my own. I was also in the middle of doing a master's degree. It worked out. You can leave if you want to and do what you gotta do to make the money work.

It's highly likely your kids are in danger. Pedophiles routinely offer a home to vulnerable women so they can prey on their children.

 

[mossyfox]

We've been together for four years and I'm very sensitive for watching out for behavioral changes in children that indicate anything is happening to them. I don't put it past anyone because I know you never know what is going on in someone's mind.

I haven't seen anything that indicates my children or his daughter have been affected by him.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

I left with no earned income and no furnishings. I already met someone online through a dating website who I vetted and made sure was ready for longterm commitment and to help me take care of my kids cuz I can't manage well on my own. I was also in the middle of doing a master's degree. It worked out. You can leave if you want to and do what you gotta do to make the money work.

Your story is not mine. Good for you. Everyone's circumstances are different. Please don't negate my shit.

I'm not looking to move in to another man's abode. Very glad I don't have kids.

It's triggering to hear about your situation. You admit you can't live alone...yet are telling me your situation is better or something...like you're doing ok and what you did is what I should. You asked which was more disturbing for your kids: hang or jump recently...

No comment here is going to give me a 'oh yeah...good idea!!!!!!" Don't tell me I can leave if I want to. That's BULLSHIT and you don't know me. YOU can not kill yourself because you have kids to raise if you want to.

 

[motel rooms]

We've been together for four years

"I already met someone online" sounded like you only met him recently.

and I'm very sensitive for watching out for behavioral changes in children that indicate anything is happening to them. I don't put it past anyone because I know you never know what is going on in someone's mind.

You're right not to put it past anyone...

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

We've been together for four years and I'm very sensitive for watching out for behavioral changes in children that indicate anything is happening to them. I don't put it past anyone because I know you never know what is going on in someone's mind.

I haven't seen anything that indicates my children or his daughter have been affected by him.

Hopefully you have a good situation for your kids to move to if you off yourself.

 

[mossyfox]

Your story is not mine. Good for you. Everyone's circumstances are different. Please don't negate my shit.

I'm not looking to move in to another man's abode. Very glad I don't have kids.

It's triggering to hear about your situation. You admit you can't live alone...yet are telling me your situation is better or something...like you're doing ok and what you did is what I should. You asked which was more disturbing for your kids: hang or jump recently...

No comment here is going to give me a 'oh yeah...good idea!!!!!!" Don't tell me I can leave if I want to. That's BULLSHIT and you don't know me. YOU can not kill yourself because you have kids to raise if you want to.

I'm saying it's possible to leave, not impossible because you said you never can leave. I never said our situations our the same. Sorry that triggered you, I was not writing it to do that. It doesn't mean you get to throw in my face insults instead of asking, is that what you're trying to say to me, because if you are that's bullshit or something like that. Being nasty because you assume I was trying to be insulting can just cause a vicious circle of anger.

I'm saying it's possible to leave, not impossible because you said you never can leave. I never said our situations our the same. Sorry that triggered you, I was writing it to do that. It doesn't mean you get to throw in my face insults instead of asking, is that what you're trying to say to me, because if you are that's bullshit or something like that. Being nasty because you assume I was trying to be insulting can just cause a vicious circle of anger.

"I already met someone online" sounded like you only met him recently.

You're right not to put it past anyone...

I should've said I had already met someone online when my ex was increasing his threats to me and the kids. He has been a really great stabilizing effect for the kids. I think but don't know for certain that my ex might ask him for help parenting if I'm gone because the kids love him just as much as a second dad, and because my ex also has issues and cannot handle parenting alone and has said so many times.

He (the stepdad) just would have no legal rights and be subject to the capricious whims of my ex in order to see the kids.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

I'm saying it's possible to leave, not impossible because you said you never can leave. I never said our situations our the same. Sorry that triggered you, I was not writing it to do that. It doesn't mean you get to throw in my face insults instead of asking, is that what you're trying to say to me, because if you are that's bullshit or something like that. Being nasty because you assume I was trying to be insulting can just cause a vicious circle of anger.

It's not your concern. Your story is different than mine. You only know your reality and circumstances. I'm not insulting you: I'm stating a facts from what I see from your posts. Meeting someone online 'ready for a longterm relationship' is no fucking lifelong security or sure thing.

If I say it's impossible- it's FUCKING impossible. No comment on SS is going to make me be like 'gee oh you're right'. You have bigger shit to deal with besides telling others they can better their situations. Do it yourself. Live for yourself and your offspring.

Insults? What was an insult? You asked: jump or hang? Not exactly someone to model myself after. I'm not trying to make you angry...but wtf?

My entire post was about being triggered by everything. You telling your brief story of how you live without furnishings by getting with a man wanting this sort of thing is not part of my agenda. It's great you got a masters. I have 2. Just drop it.

 

[mossyfox]

It's insulting to accuse me of intentionally rubbing things in your face and accusing me of bragging, now adding that I tried to brag about having a master's. Doing a master's at that time meant having even less money and not being able to have earned income either, that's why I mentioned it.

You cited only three reasons why you can't leave, no earned income, not living alone, and no furnishings and stated it's impossible to ever change that. I told a personal anecdote of a possible way to leave under those restrictions, for you to take or leave as it applies to your life. Like, maybe you don't like living alone, but you also don't want to don't want to live with a different man. That's the point of sharing the way I was able to leave under the restrictions you mentions. The point of a thread is you get to keep talking if you want and saying more details or just that's 'it's more complicated for me than that'. I was going off what you posted.

You read all my posts and threads and respond to almost all of them and then jump down my throat because I respond to yours? Not only that but you saved up everything you read about what I posted so you can throw it in my face later when your pissed off. My ex did that to me and I don't like people who do that. If you want me to drop it, stop following me around SS and storing ammunition to attack me with later when you feel like shit.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

It's insulting to accuse me of intentionally rubbing things in your face and accusing me of bragging, now adding that I tried to brag about having a master's. Doing a master's at that time meant having even less money and not being able to have earned income either, that's why I mentioned it.

You cited only three reasons why you can't leave, no earned income, not living alone, and no furnishings and stated it's impossible to ever change that. I told a personal anecdote of a possible way to leave under those restrictions, for you to take or leave as it applies to your life. Like, maybe you don't like living alone, but you also don't want to don't want to live with a different man. That's the point of sharing the way I was able to leave under the restrictions you mentions. The point of a thread is you get to keep talking if you want and saying more details or just that's 'it's more complicated for me than that'. I was going off what you posted.

You read all my posts and threads and respond to almost all of them and then jump down my throat because I respond to yours? Not only that but you saved up everything you read about what I posted so you can throw it in my face later when your pissed off. My ex did that to me and I don't like people who do that. If you want me to drop it, stop following me around SS and storing ammunition to attack me with later when you feel like shit.

Huh? I just said you are focused on hanging or jumping...and have kids... I'm not purposely saving up ammo to piss you off or hurt you.

It's fine to give input and it's another to say 'you can leave if you really want to'....that's really idk? situationally deluded. Not everyone can leave. AGAIN: YOU DON"T KNOW MY SITUATION. And yours doesn't sound that great either.

I'll press Ignore. You joined on the 4th...I think I commented on your hang/jump kid post. I didn't write: hey what's wrong...surely if you really WANT to you can get better you can....No...I didn't. but you did to me.

Cool. Ignore.