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[HamDrone]

30min ago i tried to do partial hanging my throat still hurts and feels like there a lump un my throat constantly i dont know if i need to talk to someone even on here i have no one who would answer my messages or pick up their phone ive called the only person that i was sure that they would answer 35 times...
hands still shaking and feeling even worse than i did prior i just dont know what to do or who to talk to.
i feel another kind of empty one that i havent before.

 

[zrk]

how'd you fail?

 

[Aflame5926]

30min ago i tried to do partial hanging my throat still hurts and feels like there a lump un my throat constantly i dont know if i need to talk to someone even on here i have no one who would answer my messages or pick up their phone ive called the only person that i was sure that they would answer 35 times...
hands still shaking and feeling even worse than i did prior i just dont know what to do or who to talk to.
i feel another kind of empty one that i havent before.

its ok dude. how ya feeling.

is there any damage to you?
what do you want dude?

 

[Al_stargate]

Damn man, that sounds rough. There is a chat function on this site but you need 30 forum posts to unlock it. There is usually someone there to talk too.

 

[HamDrone]

how'd you fail?

as if someone pushed a panic button when i felt the rope tighten and my head stuffed im guessing thats the survival thing people talked about.

its ok dude. how ya feeling.

is there any damage to you?
what do you want dude?

feeling not even disappointed or sad just nothing the lack of emotion is more than i can put into words.

no damage from the attempt just red all around and body is feeling as if im falling (the feeling before going to sleep).
at this point i dont have a clue ive been sitting staring into a corner after this post for 20min not even a thought came to mind

Damn man, that sounds rough. There is a chat function on this site but you need 30 forum posts to unlock it. There is usually someone there to talk too.

i didnt know about that thank you.

 

[zrk]

as if someone pushed a panic button when i felt the rope tighten and my head stuffed im guessing thats the survival thing people talked about.

feeling not even disappointed or sad just nothing the lack of emotion is more than i can put into words.

no damage from the attempt just red all around and body is feeling as if im falling (the feeling before going to sleep).
at this point i dont have a clue ive been sitting staring into a corner after this post for 20min not even a thought came to mind

i didnt know about that thank you.

Fuck that, probably why people go for full suspension

 

[HamDrone]

Fuck that, probably why people go for full suspension

yeah it doesnt feel great just trying to recover and stop shaking so much.

im kind of afraid of full suspension thats why i chose partial.
Update:
for further context everything was spontaneous not the way i planned it and i had a big breakdown (this is when i started calling for 10min straight) everything what happened seems like time was skipped from balling my eyes out to going to my room and attaching the rope to an anchor point, i did feel something at the side of my throat when i dropped myself down from that moment my brain panicked i got free and started calling my GF even it was 11.30pm here i knew she was not asleep she just didnt answer no one who i called did she was the only guarantee in my head that "hey she will answer". she didnt.

currently after more than an hour still shaking and getting harder to write even on pc drinking rum so i would stop shaking (when i have anxiety attacks i do this).